'arbitrage' is a bullet right in the feels. I have no other way to describe it. it made me struggle and squirm for days.
but 'anterograde tomorrow' is the one am holding back on. it's been like a year now and am still not ready yet.

i feel you..

I haven't read it myself yet, though your recommendation makes me want to^^

To everybody in the comments asking where to find it, I think this is it:
http://fumerie.livejournal.com/7778.html

(at least that's what I got from a quick AFF search where I found an analysis about a story called arbitrage that provided this link and it looks like it is the story)

Where can I find it? Or how do I look for it?

Who is it by+

I foresee myself having the same reaction sometime next year. I think 1 year ain't enough to prepare myself for the angst of the fandom classics oTL

I just stared at the ceiling after reading it then when reality started coming back to me I felt like crying so i did while punching my pillow bawling my eyes out
yeah, i totally feel you /pats your head/

its ok i feel

it's been like 4 years since i've read arbitrage and i still dont really get it LOOL it was really good but im still confused as heck about the timelines