Now before you start going off on how the Kpop star life is not all the glamorous, listen to me first. Yes, I know all about it (well some of it). And I don't necessarily want a kpop star life. Performing and singing do sound fun but I love my sleep and food too much to give it up for the glamour life. 

What I meant from all this is that I want a few certain hardworking aspects of it. With the Kpop star life, they push themselves to do everything...well perfectly. Whether it is their singing, dancing or school, I want that part. I want to be surrounded by members or people that I can work with to push myself to these goals. I want to look beautiful and I want to have fun exercising and dancing with people within my group. They're just so motivated yet at the same time it looks fun (if you minus the dirty side of the entertainment industry). Sometimes, I wish I could gather a group of people who are into kpop around my area and do this. But I feel like it'll be too weird and it'll be pushing it. 

Secretly, I wish I was in a group or at least create a group where we all can tell each other our grades, weight and goals. It's weird and it can certainly be uncomfortable right? But I'm really hoping for the special connection and motivation that these kpop groups have to better myself. Lately, I don't get a lot of support from anyone and there's such a lack of motivation in my life that I feel so helpless. But I feel like if I start this, I'll become a bit tyrannical. Hahaha. Yet at the same time, it could work. I'll make new and hopefully supportive friends. And possibly get into better shape and get my life together overall. 

I'm so tempted to start something like this online....