No updates. No news about updates. No words from the author. You must have thought I was dead or had abandon all my stories entirely, right? If you did, it is understadable. I should have maybe updated you on what happened with me, why I didn't update, and if there even would be any updates at all. 

So why haven't I been updating? 
I have been trying to get ahold of my life and myself after being lost for many, many years. One day I was stading in front of the mirror and looked at myself and realized that I didn't recognized who I was. And from then I started cutting off things in my life that got in the way of being myself. Storywriting that had been one of the things that I used as an escape to not face reality ended up being one of them. So no writing meant no updates. 

And why didn't I tell anyone about it? 
I actually thought no one that read my stories cared. I thought people only cared about the stories. So me telling them what was really going on was out of the question. Why should I tell people about what I go through if they don't really care? And a bit of me thought that if I wrote a long explanation as to why no updates are happening, some people might think that instead of putting time into writing that, I could have put time into writing an update. So yeah, I didn't tell anyone about it. 

So....will there be updates now? 
I honestly don't know. For the past year, maybe more, I haven't felt any creativity to write. I couldn't come up with things to write even if I had wanted to. As of now, I don't think writing would be good for me, at least not fictional stories. As I said earlier, I used storywriting to escape reality, and right now I'm in need to be presence in my life. There are things in my life that I would like to avoid and escape from, but I can't do it. I have to face them to actually be free from them. I do however use fictional stories, like games, movies, books, tvshows, to get a break from the things I'm dealing with. And maybe I can use that time to write, but I haven't felt like doing that, I haven't felt like I want to deal with the stress I experience when I hit a road block when I write that I don't know how to get around. So I just don't write. But maybe, maybe if I one day feel like I have the energy and time to put into storywriting I might do it. But we will see. I'm not promising anything. 

So what am I doing now? 
As I said earlier, I'm trying to find myself again. I am trying things to see if I like them or not, and I'm trying to spend time doing things that I do like. I'm also trying to get healthy. Main focus is my mental health right now. After that I might put more focus on my physical health. I'm also trying to build up a life that I want and that I can be happy with. 

Are you writing anything at all? 
Yes, I am writing. I am writing about things I experience in my life. My opinion about things, and more stuff like that.

Can we read what you write? 
Yeah...if you find the place where I post it...Kidding. If you really want to have the link, I will give it to you. Just send me a message. 

Is this a goodbye? 
It depends. If you want to stick around and wait for me to update, it is not a goodbye. But if you don't want to wait, which is completely understandable, it might turn into a goodbye. 


And yeah....that is my explanation about where I have been and what I'm doing. If you have more questions you can ask. I will try to answer all of them.