Okay so...I was gone again ._. I think some may have noticed. Maybe. Possibly. And I'm so so sorry ._. it was so sudden and I feel so bad cause the internet has been terrible and a lot of bad things happened so I couldn't do much. But, now that things are kind of more stable (I use this term loosely ._. cause life), I do feel I owe you guys and explanation for disappearing again and yeah ._. it's kinda long, and kinda rambly cause I have no meds right now, but hopefully it's legible >.<.

So, initially, what happened in around...April-ish? Might have been May ._. it was so rushed. But what happened is my grandma (I'm sure some of you remember that I'm really close to her so I spend lots of time with her) essentially did the dumbest decision (her words, not mine) and got both of her knees replaced. At the same time. Which is typically a really, REALLY bad idea. And so she was in the hospital for a suuuuper long time, I had to actually stay with her for a couple weeks in and out while she was there because the hospital here in Idaho is terrible and stupid, and essentially almost let her die (she has that problem where she stops breathing when she's given pain medicine, something they apparently kept forgetting). So that took up a lot of time ._. and then after the hospital, she was moved to one of those live-in physical therapy centers to help her learn to walk again, basically, so I had to come and stay at her house and take care of her animals for her. That ended up lasting till about...July, I think.

And on top of this, we had to move again, so that took a big chunk of time and resources. Which I'm really not complaining too much cause we moved into my grandma's house so she could move in with my uncle, so it's familiar, and it's much cheaper. However, during said move, my jump drive was destroyed; and while my jump drive didn't have too many of my old works on it, it had a lot of old stories on it that I never posted and wanted to work on :/ so that was...really heartbreaking for me. I actually still get mad over it >.> and may or may not blame my old roommate for it a tiny bit. But that's another story entirely >.<.

Then we had the money struggles that came with moving, as well as my boyfriend's job being...less than reliant until they just let him go entirely. We had to sell a lot of stuff to get by, which sadly, included my laptop :/ so I couldn't do much of anything for a longggg time aside from when my boyfriend was out and I could get on his computer; and even then, I'm scared to touch his computer after the time I accidentally killed it by dumping soda into it ._. so I try to not use it too much. He also didn't have word on it since he doesn't write anymore, and I loathe notepad, so I just kinda played WoW when he was gone since I never knew how long he'd actually be gone, so I didn't want to be in the writing mindset and be interrupted >.<.

BUT things are better now :D we're mostly stable now. My boyfriend has a new job, I still can't get any meds or anything, but I'm used to that by now ._. I have access to word again for the most part, so I can write again :D

What now is that I have to rewrite chapters 5 and 6 to From Dusk Until Dawn >.> because those were on my jump drive, and I made the dumb decision to not save them on anything else. But oh well XD maybe now I can rewrite them and make them better, since before they were...not up to my tastes >.>

Anyway, I'm sorry for suddenly disappearing :c it all happened so fast I seriously had no time to get on and write a blog. Hopefully you guys forgive me >.< though I don't deserve it.

I also just wanted to make sure no one thought I was avoiding them or ignoring them ._. cause I see all the messages I have upon logging on and omg I don't deserve you guys ;;

(Sorry again for the rambles >.<)