Hey everyone!! How are you?

So I'm not even sure if someone will read this because I don't know if some of you are still active but... yeah I guess I'll just rant here. I stopped writing loooooong ago and I probably will never finish all those stories that got on-hold so.. sorry about that. I could just tell you that I've been away from kpop (which is half true) but it wasn't only that. I've been through harsh stuff the past few months.

I lost someone who's very important to me, and after that it felt as if the whole world was crashing on my back. I had no energy, no will to do anything, I lost weight and almost gained anaemia. I still managed to (somehow) graduate from university. Yeah I got a bachelor's degree now and I'm looking for a job. I'm slowly getting better.

Some days are worst, some days I still feel like just staying in bed and cry all day. But I never did that. I'm forcing myself to move on because that's what that person would want. I'm doing it for me and for my family. I realized along the way that some people weren't there when I needed, but it's okay because I also met wonderful people that are helping me deal with all of this. Time won't heal my wounds, but it's certainly teaching how to live with the pain.

So, what I actually want to say (if some of you are still reading this), is that you should live your life. Do what makes you feel better. And do it for yourself, because you never know what you might lose and we always take everything for granted. I know all of this might sound like a huge cliche, but trust me. I've experienced so much the past 8 years. A lot of bad things happened, things that forced me to grow up and mature and find a strength within myself I didn't know I have.

Just do me a favor, do it for yourself. Go take those classes you want even if everyone tells you they're useless. Go tell your crush you like them. Adopt a pet. Go make that trip you always dreamed of. Don't exhaust yourself working or studying. Take some time of the week for yourself, if it's to go shopping, make your beauty routine, read a book, watch a movie...

Promise me you'll try to find happiness in the small things. Promise me you'll be strong. Promise me you'll try to enjoy life. Because so many people wanted to be here but they're gone forever.

Sincerely.