Guys, this is gonna sound bad or insane or just stupid... but I literally don't know anymore.

I feel like my soul is crush, my heart's been ripped right out of my chest and I'm just dead. inside and out.

I'm not going through a breakup, I just... I'm too stressed. I don't know how to stop it, I don't know why I feel like this (my best guess is school and the lack of support at home.) and it just really hurts. 

as I type this, my eyes are welling up. I can't being to describe how much I just want to give up. I'd do anything just to dissappear, but I can't. I have my whole life ahead of me. 

I really feel like this is the last straw for me. I don't know if I can trust my teachers, I really doubt my parents (I got bullied and they'd think that's what this is), and very few of my closest friend actually understand the meaning behind my criptic snaps. (not even meant to have snapchat.... so don't ask for it.)

I literally just want to leave everything behind. I can't go and just give up,I know that, but I feel like I can just blog this and even if no one sees it I still have let it out.

 I'm sorry if anyone is worried,I don't mean to cause alarm but this is how I feel. I don't know if this is a replased into my mild depression again or not but Hey, for now I'll fake my smiles and pretend like very thing is okay.