I lied and said I would update

I should be honest why I haven't updated.

Have you ever been abused into writing a story?

Yeah, it sounds weird but I have been reflecting on why I have yet to write fanfiction and it hit me like a mack-truck. My used-to-be friend would hit me if I didn't write. We were doing a story together, more like a role-playing, and I tried everything I could to write as much as I could. I felt horrible, and I lost interest in writing, but without writing a page at least once a day, I would be hit or punched in the arm so hard, she left bruises. 

I lost the want to write.

I even began to fail my creative writing class, a class I loved so goddamn much. I felt like a writing monkey.

I have been struggling to find inspiration when one day, it hit me in my AP Literature class, and I began to write again. I don't know when I will update on here but the support I got on my stories have made me the happiest person. I am finally stable, I have a girlfriend, my grades are all A's, my depression is under control and I have been cut free for 7 months! I finally feel in control.

I think I will update rather soon. I have some spare time with my classes, so I may be able to.

It's weird to think, in 8 months, I will be high school graduate.

Anyways, I love you guys.

~brokenblades-13