yo, I rarely blog at asianfanfics but seem all my social acc got followed by someone I know, so it's practically isn't save for me to confess something without hurting them.. 

No, it just you don't want to make them feel guilty.. yeah, that kind of feels.. 

I'm always introvert although there's many times I tried to break that wall.. It seems just only leaves either dented or holes on the wall..  The wall still firmly grip and strong.. 

Have you ever just totally feels blessed when the persons close to you remember your birthday and just give you a wish??  yep, that's me.. 

Heck, I do felt a little envy when there's always someone celebrate the other's birthday especially if they're special.. The last time I celebrate my birthday would be around 8 or 9 something.. and there's that.. after that, all you got is birthday wishes.. Ain't you no complaining.. Cuz at least, they wish you.. But this year probably the worst, cuz the one that close to me forgot my birthday and they didn't even give me a wish.. 

At the end of the day and next morning, I got wish from them.. you know, I felt so torn to have high hopes.. Maybe they're probably too busy, but I didn't ask much.. only a simple happy birthday message would lit my day up.. Others would have surprise birthday party or celebration, but I only want one wish especially from someone that dears to me and precious to me.. 

sometimes I do think, am I too easy??