Hello,

this is jamesthepirates or should i call myself Jamie ?

my real name is ata

as some you know probably already known, i was in comatose due to the failure of the surgery in order to cure my CFS

i have already woken up months ago but i woke up with amnesia due to the traumatic things

i forgot almost everything , i even forget about my family: mom, brother and his fiance for almost a month until i can remember them again

it has been months after all these s therapy i've followed but i still can not fully recover

i still can not remember some things

it feels like there are missing pages in my memory book

and one of those pages is THIS , my AFF career (?)

i've tried , believe me i've tried hard , i've tried anything but i still can get back those 'Jamie's spirit' on my mind or let's say in simple words I CANT WRITE ANYMORE

i tried to chat with my AFF friends, i tried to read stories, i even tried to re-read my own stories but ZERO . . i still can not remember anything

i even accused my brother, when he said i wrote all those stories, he's lying!!!

hell no bro..i never wrote those..i cant write..no way.. those what i said

so, i dont know now, what should i do?

hmm

i think i'm going to give up.. i'm retired from being an author..

i'm not gonna deactivate this account since my brother said my or Jamie's stories are good and many people still want to read it

i will be a silent reader from now

i'm deeply truly sorry to all Jamie's friends and readers

if only i could turn back time, i wish i dont have CFS, i dont need to have a surgery, i dont have to be in comatose, and i dont have to hae this stupid amnesia

i'm really sorry..really i am...

i... i...

i dont know what to say anymore...

i'm sorry

i'm sorry

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i'm sorry

i'm sorry

i'm sorry

goodbye (?)