Hi guys! Just wanted to tell someone this. 

Im almost at my limit. Im tired of pretending. I want an escape. Imtired of everything. Im a ing failure you know. I cant ing get a job and got rejected three times!!! Can you ing believe that?! I want to die. I hvent done any cutting YET. But someday i will. Im into punching my head for now. I punch my head when imupset or stressed. Im already stupid anyway. I just want a happy family and a big circle of friends. I want everything to be okay. I want freedom, happiness and love. I dont care if i growl old alone cause i know i dont deserve someone wholl love me. Im okay being alone. 

This life is what I call my DREAM. And I want to wake up from it. My REALITY is where im free and everyone is happy. Everything is perfect. Where i have a job and im smart and dont get judge. I want to wake up from this dream. And i know how to. Im a coward thats why i cant do it. 

Thank you for reading! Just want to get this out of my head or im going crazy. Well im already crazy in the head. Bye!!