圧力下の_UNCONFESSED CHILDHOOD LOVER, 한태국
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DEAR JIOHN,
i don't know what you want me to say. should i be happy that you're in a happier place now? no - i'm not. im disappointed in you jiohn, im ing upset. goddamn it, jiohn! how selfish could you be ing leaving me here, huh?! i'm angry you never told me about your problems, i'm angry you just left, i'm angry i didn't get to say goodbye. what the was our last moment together? me walking you to third and flicking you across your forehead. was that memorable for me to remember you like that? there's so many things i want to tell you but i couldn't because you just left. you left with no notice. and this time - all this time, i thought you were fine... i thought you were okay, my damn flame - i thought nothing could ever break you down. i loved you all these years and now you're gone... this heavy feeling in my heart because i never got to tell you. now i'm just resenting, i know it's wrong of me to do so but ! what am i supposed to say or do without you, jiohn... didn't you feel at least bit of pity in your heart? remember the butterfly effect concept i told you about?
if only right...? if only i noticed a little sooner, if only I was there a little sooner, you could have still been right here. I could still have been able to take you out to your favorite cafe before I have practice. we'd order the usual which was a tropical smoothie with a slice of blackberry cheesecake because you enjoyed that weird combination. if only i realized you were hurting a little earlier, i could have been there to protect you... i loved - no not past tense, i still do and for so long. i wish you knew that in a way it could have changed your darling little heart.
one day, we'll see each other soon... tu me manques
sincerely your toothache,
han pierre taeguk.
if only right...? if only i noticed a little sooner, if only I was there a little sooner, you could have still been right here. I could still have been able to take you out to your favorite cafe before I have practice. we'd order the usual which was a tropical smoothie with a slice of blackberry cheesecake because you enjoyed that weird combination. if only i realized you were hurting a little earlier, i could have been there to protect you... i loved - no not past tense, i still do and for so long. i wish you knew that in a way it could have changed your darling little heart.
one day, we'll see each other soon... tu me manques
sincerely your toothache,
han pierre taeguk.
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full name. HAN taegukgender. male
birth records. paris, france / june 17th, 1998
occupation. student / part-time cafe cashier
nicknames.
>| pierre ; french name - his family members can call him this and only certain friends that he's close with, he'll let call him this
>| light-pole ; a fun nickname given to him by his friends because of his tall height because one time at some light poles he could reach the street sign with his long arms
>| toothache ; jiohn gave him this nickname because he was always with her, being kind and sweet to her. sometimes she'd blame her cavities on him for the reason being that he always took her out to eat sweets.
faceclaim. kim jisoo [actor]
backup. nam joohyuk [actor]
weight + height. 72 kg + 184 cm
extra notes about appearance. taeguk has two tattoos total, one on his left forearm that says "aimer ou ne pas aimer" which means to love or not love since he's such a huge hopeless romantic, he needed something on his arm like that. after jiohn's death, he decided to get a fresh new one in remembrance of her which is, "mon ami(my friend), oh jiohn mmxvi" and this one was placed on below his first tattoo on his left forearm. when he lifts up his shirt, or has his shirt off - you can see he has a bad burnt scar from his waist down to his hip from a stupid prank his friends pulled on him two years ago.
backup. nam joohyuk [actor]
weight + height. 72 kg + 184 cm
extra notes about appearance. taeguk has two tattoos total, one on his left forearm that says "aimer ou ne pas aimer" which means to love or not love since he's such a huge hopeless romantic, he needed something on his arm like that. after jiohn's death, he decided to get a fresh new one in remembrance of her which is, "mon ami(my friend), oh jiohn mmxvi" and this one was placed on below his first tattoo on his left forearm. when he lifts up his shirt, or has his shirt off - you can see he has a bad burnt scar from his waist down to his hip from a stupid prank his friends pulled on him two years ago.
traits.
[+; loyal, honest, selfless, romantic]
[-; short-tempered, impulsive, sarcastic, anxious]
personality. taeguk naturally had always been a good person at heart - at least when he isn't provoked at all. he's always loved each and everyone one of his friends that he created.he's a very loyal person to his friends or the person he's in relationship with. he would never do anything to backstab them, he'll defend them in any matter his friends got himselves into. however, it's quick for him to turn his backs on them once he realizes that whoever he's friends with is either trying to backstab him, ruin his friendships with others, etc - along those lines. he's a very honest person, he always says whatever is on his mind and doesn't care if it hurts others and whatnot. sometimes it comes off as rude but he thinks if y'all are friends, there is no need to cover it up with a bittle lie. just be straight up and harsh. taeguk has always felt that others mattered more than he did so he always put the others around him first, he'd always be the first to offer a helping hand and loves to constantly spoil his friends buy surprising them with food or occasionally buying gifts for them just cause. he's a hopeless romantic, he's always been the type to be witty with his words, being smooth with the girls. however, whenever he falls for a girls, he'll do the cutest things for her to notice sometimes maybe she wouldn't even notice but still. it's something he does.
taeguk can a person of not reasonable actions. he's such a short-tempered little rat sometimes. he gets angry very easily sometimes and that sometimes can change him into another person. aka, he becomes meaner and ruder. his curse words become a storm and he becomes brutal jerk to his friends. sometimes his friends fear him especially when he's angry the most because he can get pretty impulsive. he'll do things without thinking and sometimes his actions get him into a bad mess. he's very sarcastic and a lot of the times, the answers you'll get back from him are pretty half-hearted and sound annoyed and not serious. he's the type to worry a lot, he thinks constantly about everything. whether it be consequences or tomorrow's history exam, etc. he'll overthink everything.
[+; loyal, honest, selfless, romantic]
[-; short-tempered, impulsive, sarcastic, anxious]
personality. taeguk naturally had always been a good person at heart - at least when he isn't provoked at all. he's always loved each and everyone one of his friends that he created.he's a very loyal person to his friends or the person he's in relationship with. he would never do anything to backstab them, he'll defend them in any matter his friends got himselves into. however, it's quick for him to turn his backs on them once he realizes that whoever he's friends with is either trying to backstab him, ruin his friendships with others, etc - along those lines. he's a very honest person, he always says whatever is on his mind and doesn't care if it hurts others and whatnot. sometimes it comes off as rude but he thinks if y'all are friends, there is no need to cover it up with a bittle lie. just be straight up and harsh. taeguk has always felt that others mattered more than he did so he always put the others around him first, he'd always be the first to offer a helping hand and loves to constantly spoil his friends buy surprising them with food or occasionally buying gifts for them just cause. he's a hopeless romantic, he's always been the type to be witty with his words, being smooth with the girls. however, whenever he falls for a girls, he'll do the cutest things for her to notice sometimes maybe she wouldn't even notice but still. it's something he does.
taeguk can a person of not reasonable actions. he's such a short-tempered little rat sometimes. he gets angry very easily sometimes and that sometimes can change him into another person. aka, he becomes meaner and ruder. his curse words become a storm and he becomes brutal jerk to his friends. sometimes his friends fear him especially when he's angry the most because he can get pretty impulsive. he'll do things without thinking and sometimes his actions get him into a bad mess. he's very sarcastic and a lot of the times, the answers you'll get back from him are pretty half-hearted and sound annoyed and not serious. he's the type to worry a lot, he thinks constantly about everything. whether it be consequences or tomorrow's history exam, etc. he'll overthink everything.
relations.
"thank you for the amazing memories these past years."
HIDDEN LOVE | OH JIOHN - 17 ; JIOHN WAS THE FIRST PERSON THAT EVER WELCOMED TAEGUK TO THE NEIGHBOURHOOD WHEN HE FIRST MOVED TO BUSAN, WHEN HE WAS 12. HE HAD ALWAYS FELT LIKE AN OUTSIDER BECAUSE HE CAME FROM FRANCE. BUT SHE WELCOMED HIM WITH A BIG SMILE SEEING HIM PLAYING OUTSIDE IN FRONT YARD BY HIMSELF ONE DAY. "HELLO, I'M OH JIOHN! are you my new neighbour?" she asked. he stared at her before replying and saying, "bonjour, je m'appelle han taeguk (hello my name is han taeguk)," he waved. her face frowned in confusion. "i'm kidding, don't look scared! i understand." he spoke in full korean. jiohn gave a sigh of relief before smiling and conversing with him. over the years he grew to fall for the young girl but never really had any guts to tell the girl since they were just best childhood neighbours. only around jiohn is when taeguk isn't harsh to her. he cares about her feelings too much. he would never let anything hurt her because she's too precious for that in his opinion.
"just because your hurting doesn't mean you go on a manhunting spree."
angel on his shoulder | park saeil - 18 ; saeil is taeguk's closest and best friend, he is on the soccer team with taeguk and that's how they met. when they were both trying out for club soccer outside of school, the two were both trying out for the goalie position. at first being rivals, but later they learned to practice with each other and get along. saeil is practically the person that tries his best to get taeguk out of trouble or at least have him think through everything he does. through the five years they've been together, saeil are practically stuck to each other like glue and have each others backs at all time.
"awe - me? cause her death? she died because of me? what an honor."
miss two-faced | oh minhae - 17 ; she's the person that has always been jealous of jiohn. especially that people loving her so dearly because of her pure like personality. don't let this cute aegyo girl fool you, she's actually the devil. having a crush on her sunbae, taeguk, she was jealous oh jiohn was so close to the soccer team's star. when she found out taeguk had feelings for jiohn from saeil, that upsetted her even more. she'd tried to find ways to cut off jiohn's relationship with taeguk. around taeguk, she'd act like a total cutie and innocent victim which taeguk always found pretty creepy so he'd avoid her sometimes. but taeguk would have iffy feelings about her.
taeguk's wikipedia -- taeguk was born in paris, france in '98. being the second oldest child and only son. growing up, he had always had an odd adoration for 80s romantic comedy film, in a way i guess you could say it shaped him into the romantic guy he is today. when he was eleven, his parents decided to move back to korea to live. feeling completey weird and awkward because he wasn't used to anything around him. it was nothing like france he thought. so to comfort his lonliness, he'd always spend his time playing soccer. he had left his team back in france and moved to korea, so that made him a bit homesick. he grew up playing soccer extremely well, especially being one of his school's star player. around school he's not very much serious when he isn't on the field. he's probably out charming girls with his witty and smooth lines.
taeguk's personal life & friends -- taeguk doesn't really have a routine of how he does things, he just goes with the flow. if he gets hit in the face by the soccerball at practice today and breaks his nose, then welp - what can he do about it? he likes think of his life like the butterfly effect. any small choice can change his future. he feels that it's risky and exciting even though his friends tell him he's being stupid as usual. amongst the prestigous school, everyone knows taeguk's friendship with people and the way it works. he's picky about who's he with, he doesn't trust them in an instant, if anything he could be an to them at first meet only because he's skeptical towards some people. but his friendship with jiohn is pretty popular because of their gullible childhood neighbour story. everyone knows you're practically taeguk's best friend if he lets you call him 'pierre' - his french name. in which he only lets saeil and jiohn.
how taeguk's brain is divided --
>| eats about six apples a day (two in the morning, two at the afternoon and two at night)
>| left-handed, that's why his tattoos are on his left arm to remember jiohn whenever he looks at it
>| he used to send little cute secret notes jiohn inside her locker and then act like he knew nothing about it
>| has a small group of friends just consisting some people from his soccer team, some people that jiohn's friends which he gets along well with
>| co-captain of the soccer team, one of the school's best players
>| loves r&b music, 80s romcom, to vaccum and mop the house
>| hates insects, spiders, sleeping in a dark room
>| if his weekends are free, he'll volunteer at homeless shelters or orphanages
>| hates letting people down, backstabbers
>| has to sleep with at least one night light in the room
>| best subjects is history & science
>| enjoys reading good literature
>| writes short poems or short stories in his free times, could be the reason why most of his essays aren't so ty
>| curses a lot and it becomes worse when he's angry
>| doesn't look left or right when crossing the street
>| eats about six apples a day (two in the morning, two at the afternoon and two at night)
>| left-handed, that's why his tattoos are on his left arm to remember jiohn whenever he looks at it
>| he used to send little cute secret notes jiohn inside her locker and then act like he knew nothing about it
>| has a small group of friends just consisting some people from his soccer team, some people that jiohn's friends which he gets along well with
>| co-captain of the soccer team, one of the school's best players
>| loves r&b music, 80s romcom, to vaccum and mop the house
>| hates insects, spiders, sleeping in a dark room
>| if his weekends are free, he'll volunteer at homeless shelters or orphanages
>| hates letting people down, backstabbers
>| has to sleep with at least one night light in the room
>| best subjects is history & science
>| enjoys reading good literature
>| writes short poems or short stories in his free times, could be the reason why most of his essays aren't so ty
>| curses a lot and it becomes worse when he's angry
>| doesn't look left or right when crossing the street
[?] WHO IS OH JIOHN. oh jiohn... she's [looks down and gives a small chuckle] she's a spunky one. a special person who's dear to me. we're the famous neighbourhood couple. [smiles brightly]
[?] DO YOU KNOW ABOUT HER GETTING BULLIED BEFORE AND HAVE YOU WITNESS HER GETTING BULLIED. well... i don't think i really knew it. i was pretty oblivious - [swallows] god, i was so ing stupid. i didn't notice. it was after practice and i was walking back inside school to my locker to get some books for homework, until I heard around the corner jiohn yell, "stop it, please - stop bullying me. i've had enough!" [pauses, clenches jaw] i approached up the stairs and asked what was wrong. and a group of girls looked at me and said my name. I asked what was going on and then jiohn instantly denied whatever I heard or saw wasn't what I thought. "we're just practicing for the class project that teacher jung assigned!" she gave a weak smile before wiping her face. "oh ! she's right, sunbae!" some of the girls perked. I shot them a glare and they instantly stopped talking. "you sure, jiohn?" she nodded and held onto my arm tightly, she only did that whenever she was scared. I believed her. god I ing believed that she was okay and nothing was hurting her [balls up fist] i never knew she was bullied... she was always so happy and carefree. it was like nothing could ever break that girl.
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[?] WHEN AND HOW DID YOU HEAR ABOUT HER DEATH. it was during practice, i'd usually walk with her to go get something to eat before i left for practice. but oddly enough, that day - she wasn't seen after third period. she didn't answer my calls or anything and if anything i knew when she didn't answer my calls she was probably stressing over exams and whatnot and she needed time alone. [looks up to stop tears] suddenly during practice, saeil ran in. weird, he was never late to practice. he came huffing and puffing and stared at me straight in the eye. "j-jiohn..." he said. "what about her?" i questioned. "s-she's... gone." saeil spat out. suddenly everything around me stopped, i thought that this must have been a prank saeil was pulling because the last prank he pulled got me a burnt scar on my stomach. but it wasn't.. the next day in class, our teacher explained what happened to jiohn. and god, i swear to god - [slams fist on table] i'm gonna find whoever made her do this to herself. and they're gonna pay. die by my hands. she was so goddAMn pure! how the could anyone be so cruel to her, she'd never hurt a ing fly. i'm gonna find them, on god and i will have them ing suffer.
[?] DO YOU KNOW ABOUT HER GETTING BULLIED BEFORE AND HAVE YOU WITNESS HER GETTING BULLIED. well... i don't think i really knew it. i was pretty oblivious - [swallows] god, i was so ing stupid. i didn't notice. it was after practice and i was walking back inside school to my locker to get some books for homework, until I heard around the corner jiohn yell, "stop it, please - stop bullying me. i've had enough!" [pauses, clenches jaw] i approached up the stairs and asked what was wrong. and a group of girls looked at me and said my name. I asked what was going on and then jiohn instantly denied whatever I heard or saw wasn't what I thought. "we're just practicing for the class project that teacher jung assigned!" she gave a weak smile before wiping her face. "oh ! she's right, sunbae!" some of the girls perked. I shot them a glare and they instantly stopped talking. "you sure, jiohn?" she nodded and held onto my arm tightly, she only did that whenever she was scared. I believed her. god I ing believed that she was okay and nothing was hurting her [balls up fist] i never knew she was bullied... she was always so happy and carefree. it was like nothing could ever break that girl.
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[?] WHEN AND HOW DID YOU HEAR ABOUT HER DEATH. it was during practice, i'd usually walk with her to go get something to eat before i left for practice. but oddly enough, that day - she wasn't seen after third period. she didn't answer my calls or anything and if anything i knew when she didn't answer my calls she was probably stressing over exams and whatnot and she needed time alone. [looks up to stop tears] suddenly during practice, saeil ran in. weird, he was never late to practice. he came huffing and puffing and stared at me straight in the eye. "j-jiohn..." he said. "what about her?" i questioned. "s-she's... gone." saeil spat out. suddenly everything around me stopped, i thought that this must have been a prank saeil was pulling because the last prank he pulled got me a burnt scar on my stomach. but it wasn't.. the next day in class, our teacher explained what happened to jiohn. and god, i swear to god - [slams fist on table] i'm gonna find whoever made her do this to herself. and they're gonna pay. die by my hands. she was so goddAMn pure! how the could anyone be so cruel to her, she'd never hurt a ing fly. i'm gonna find them, on god and i will have them ing suffer.
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LAST COMMENTS. i had fun filling this out hahah and omg some parts are long [like the letter and the questions] i am so sorry, like seriously i am so sorry about that - i just got too into that but i tried and hopefully you like taeguk (':
SCENE REQUESTS. answer
1] taeguk finds who bullied jiohn, he'll lash out on them ; his temper and impulsive side gets to the best of him
2] maybe the two faced aka minhae have something to do with her death actually??
3] anything else you'd like to add author-nim it is your story and lol im fine with anything
SCENE REQUESTS. answer
1] taeguk finds who bullied jiohn, he'll lash out on them ; his temper and impulsive side gets to the best of him
2] maybe the two faced aka minhae have something to do with her death actually??
3] anything else you'd like to add author-nim it is your story and lol im fine with anything
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