So I just wanted to write something somewhere, to get some things off my chest. Don't feel obligated to respond, I just wanted to do this for myself.

I'm at the age now where I really need to start thinking about my life, but it's gotten to the point that it feels like I've lost direction. I'm not sure what I want to do, but at the same time I have so many interests. Maybe I just don't feel motivated enough for one specific thing. But of course, my parents are on me about making a plan and having a solid direction for where I'm headed. I don't feel like I can do it though, and I certainly don't feel as if I'm going to succeed. They always say to keep positive, and the power of positive thinking is how to start; I try and yet still fail. Can't be positive, can't be negative, what else is there? I'm stuck in a void, I'm at a stand still and I'm terrified of failing the only thing that will kick start my future. There's a lot of pressure and I don't feel satisfied anymore. 

I've been saying a lot lately that I feel like I'm going no where fast, that I'm going to end up being a nobody doing nothing. I try to think positive (there it is again), but I feel like that doesn't work, or it only lasts so long. If only it were possible to turn back time, I would find the moment where everything started going wrong and somehow make it right.

Sorry for rambling, I just felt like this needed to be said. To whoever reads this, thanks for listening.