it's tiring, isn't it?
Hi! No one probably read this but it's okay, I just want to let my thoughts out, it's a great thing to do once in a while.
As you can read from the title, things will probably sound dramatic after this, but I just want to get my mind off things.
I am a 14 y/o girl, living in a part of south-east asia. I love reading, I love sarcasm, and I do things people labelled as "hideous" (atleast it is in my country)... I skipped classes, I wore exposing clothing, I cursed at every single thing, and you can say I am a .
I act like I don't care but I do, I really do, I care about everything. I have a small group of friends, they are quite close... to each other. I always feels like I am not wanted with them. They ignored me, a lot.
But, my life is crumbling apart, my parents were disappointed at me, and still are, I had a surgery because a part of my body was not working properly and I could end up unwanted all my life due to this certain thing, I dreamt of being a model, an actress, but no one, like literally no one supported me.
And it was so bad, to the point I did things to myself, to the point I did want to end it all.
But, since that lowest point of my life, I changed, I became giddy, overly happy, atleast that's what they see. An overly-happy girl. But world continues, with or without me, and it gets worst, and I feel like ending the whole play, it couldn't continue anymore. I'm too tired. Very tired.
It gets tiring, doesn't it?
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