I don't like sharing personal stuff on there but yeah... so here is the dream I had this night about Sehun and that left me waking up in sweat...

We were all back from a tiring but really memorable evening. Getting into my room, all the four of us collapsed into my bed, me between Jongin and Sehun, and my best friend beside the latter. We were still high on our laughs and I closed my eyes, bringing my hands entwined to my chest and trying to calm my breathing. My body felt hot, squeezed between the two males and I could hear Jongin's still heavy breathing whistling in my ear. But suddenly, I realized why it all felt so hot and suffocating.
Beside me, Sehun was burning up with what seemed to be a fever. And it also made me realize that he was the only one not laughing. Suddenly, he curled deeper against my side and wrapped one of his thumb against my hand, clutching it as if his life depended on it, and I could hear almost indistinctly tiny little whining coming from him. Worried, I took his other hand with my free own, and brought him closer to me, trying to appease him in some way.

"Sehun, is everything all right?" I inquired, at this point completly alarmed.

I could feel Jongin shift beside me as he was brought out of his mooning by my words, but all of this was completly forgotten when the crying boy's leg s itself around my hips and before I could react, Sehun was on top of me, nose burried in the crook of my neck and pouring his tears out, sobbing like a wreck against my shirt, like an upset toddler against his mom. And here I was, drawing soothing circles on his boiling back, feeling how his body was trembling, from rage or sadness I don't know, asking him what was wrong whilst I was eyeing an as worried as me Jongin.
Suddenly, we all heard it, how Sehun murmed between two heart wrecking sobs:

"Can you please all go out?"

But the way he was holding onto me as if his life depended on it, I understood I wasn't concerned by those words.

"I need to talk to her." He added, confirming my thoughts.

And the tone of his voice sounded strained, bit mostly urgent, as if what he had to tell me was something so secretive and important no one should witness it. My insides clenched at that.

Wrapping my arms around his slender frame and placing a maternal kiss on his damp forehead, I looked at my best friend and Jongin, and both nodded at me before taking their leave, leaving me with a crying Sehun sniffing against my hair and digging his nail desperatly in my forearms.

And BAM of course here my sis decided to slam the door and woke me up at 5am ^-^

So the thing about this dream is, it felt so real. The hot feeling, Sehun holding onto me this desperatly, the dampness of his skin. I could feel it all, and I was in an extreme sense of anxiety. When I woke up, I was actually in the same position as when Sehun curled against me, only I was the one holding tightly onto my parrot plush...
And it really angers me that my sis woke me up because it felt as if what Sehun was about to tell me was really important, I had this gut feeling and still have it. Hey, I know I wouldn't have got any sort of revelation in my dream, but this is still really frustrating, you know? Like when your friends tell you they have something capital to tell later and when later comes they forgot '-' oh the pain...

But anyway, I was just feeling really angsty the past days about EXO because of said gut feeling, so I guess it kind of got into my dreams too... however then I remembered that such a similar situation happened between me and my ex boyfriend. Ugh.

Moral of the story: I should teach my sis how to close doors gracefully.

So what do you think?