Hey, haven't touch my blog and stories for one year. TAT I hope you can forgive me guys. I have a 3 months vacation and I'm going to update all of my ongoing fanfics. Life is so hard since I started college, from major adjustments to big expectations to almost depression state to happiness... It's just a brain/heart routine.

My heart is so fit, she's been beating hard for almost a year. A six pack abs for my heart  will be good. I just realized i'm not good at expressing myself to others. I'm weak when defending myself, i'm weak when it comes to words. And these are the reasons why i'm struggling nowadays, people are looking at me like a slow human who can't even understand a single explanation. I just can't endure every words they drop everyday. How does it feel? Just think about the Nagasaki/Hiroshima bombing, you just died because of what they dropped in your place. I won't die with simple words, you fool. But i do get weak everytime they let me feel that.

Always rememeber "We age not by years, but by the experiences we encounter"

If I'm a kid in your eyes, then that's who i am. I won't change.

Immature? Then fine i won't initiate late night useless talks.

Not fully grown up? I have a hair on the top of my head, fingers and feet plus a sole at the end. I'm fully developed. I may have flaws and imperfections, but i thought you know everything?

Why things aren't clear between us? Can you atleast open your mind for me? 

it's you who have a problems sometimes but i stayed quiet and kept my cool. 

You judged me for a lot of times, i stayed beside you. In joy or sorrow. 

This is the first time I got mad at you. I never felt this madness before, but you just pushed me down. I was fully hurt by the words you said. I'm sorry.  I am sorry, I never felt like this towards you. But i was so hurt and it's still hurting until now.