For this whole week, after Kai dropped that kind of bomb to his fans, I've been searching, reading and enjoying a lot of articles and conspiracies that are writed by the fans. So much delulu, so much theories, and so much hatred towards Kai. I even read Kaisoo, >.< theories. Aigoo yah.

For me, at first I was shocked and devastated with the news, it was like someone's already took my Kai away from me. But not to the point that I will hate Kai and his gf. With open heart, i was like, okay. If he's happy with that way, then go on. Moreover, who am i to stop my bias from getting in love with somebody. I'm just a commoner, fat, ugly and poor fan, while Kai is the prince. Soon or later, he will have someone special in his real life. Urghh and just why Kai needs to keep saying to ExoL.. "You're mine! You're mine!" Somehow, I felt a little betrayed by his words, it just make me hard to move on. But then again, who am I? I'm just one from his millions fans around the world who has no right to Kai and I'm not even spend my money to buy Exo's album. hehe...

But, what makes me more sad now is.. just why there's pictures who is said to be Kai was kissing his gf in swimming pool spread widely on net? Okayh, and my next question, are the pictures legit? Is it really Kai? People said the pics were photoshopped and seeing how SM don't try hard to stop that news from spreading any further, i was like -.- Hm, why sm why? 

And i also read a lot about the 'hotel issue', 'skiing issue', 'cat issue' and even 'living together in apartment issue'. I don't want fully trust those sources since I don't know whether they're speaking the truth unless they're showing the indefisiable evidences, and people can always talk, talk and talk without stop. Like me right now. Until today, the only pics that were showing the really Kai and Krystal are dating are just from Dispatch. With their bare face without make up and any mask to cover up, of course no doubt i can easily recognize them. Haaaa... 

But, who am i again? I'm just a normal netizen who is not living in Korea and just desperately depends on the news that are written by various people that obviously have different motives. 

And for the Kaistal fans who keep accusing some fans who do not accept Kai's dating news well, like being immatured or because we're having some dream to end up our life with Kai, you're wrong. There's a lot of handsome and real guys, even more handsome than Kai are waiting for us out there, just u olls don't know. Has Has Hasss.. ok, i'm kidding again.

I actually forgot to write here, so i just want to say, I can accept if Kai is actually a flirty boy because he is just being a normal human here. I kinda glad he's not really alien who keeps his feeling to himself. But somehow, i felt a little frust if all those bad articles about him are actually true. I kinda imagine Kai is like Justin Bieber version Korea now.

I don't say Kai cannot dating. He can date with all those girls if he wants. But I hope he can be more careful. Since he's an idol, not a normal netizen. And he's from one of the famous group in Kpop. If he wants to date, then bravely come out and announce it to the world. 'Hey, ExoL! I love this girl and i want to love her for the rest of my life. so, please support us!'

It will be more easy for us to accept and we can show our beautiful support to our bias who is finally meet with someone that can make him smile. But not with all those pictures from Dispatch, all the make up stories, and even from the conversation between the two hotel staffs.Oh i got my headache. 

Kai ah, if you really love her, be a bold man, come out from your hiding, show to the world how love you're with your gf, then get married. After married, then kiss her for how many hours do you want, go and have a sport together with her for how many days you want, and even holding her hands like you're being glued to her. Then, we, the fans, can eventually smile all the way. :)))

Okayh, i'm hungry and that's all i want to say for now. so bye bye.. hehehe