i'm not sure how should i start...my heart is in pain, deep pain and i'm trying hard to control my tears from falling...

it has been more than three months since i was transferred to the directors's office to be one of the PAs...

being rejected and lashed with harsh words from my previous department had no effect for me, though it hurt sometimes, even though i tried hard to deny it...

and now, when everyone in my new office tried to do the same to me because of my level of education and years of service, i feel erally bad and sad...

i'm lying if i say i don't feel hurt when i get ignored most of the time when i needed their help...

yea, i cried till i fell asleep the other day when one of them stabbed me at the back, they told my boss i didn't complete my work when that so-called work was not mine...i was just helping her since i felt pity for her having so many tasks at her hand...and when my boss confronted me for that matter, i really had a shocked of my life but i managed to reply that i had done my part...but i guess my boss won't take it since i'm the most junior and youngest in the office...and i'll say most of the time i'm the best candidate to get all the blame and scolding...

a short meeting with my ex senior manager this very morning made me felt a little better...thank you, puan hapsah for having faith on me, placing your trust on me as you believe that i can make it to the top...

now that i'm in my office again, i should put on my poker face ...smile even though it hurts...