so... about kai..... and what i should do now as a writer....

 

how is everyone feeling? with the jongin is dating krystal news... i mean, yeah, i'm happy for him because he found someone he loves and wants to be with, but after that's over, i'm just left wondering .....what do i do about sekai?

 

basically, i get really emotionally attached to my otps. i mean, i've never been delusional thinking they were in love in real life (but there's a possibility, no matter how small), but it just. it doesn't make it hurt any less? haha. sekai is my ultimate kpop otp and i love watching them interact with each other, sometimes with these adoring gazes to each other, you know? but now all i can think about is, "oh, jongin is holding sehun's hand but i wonder if in his mind he wishes he is holding krystal's hand instead..." you know? like a;ldfjafa i'm a very pessimistic person by nature so i can't help but think the worst in everything...,,

 

i've never had a ship where 1 of them was confirmed to be dating someone else before, so i'm kinda lost... chanbaek shippers, how did you guys deal with baekyeon in 2014? did you just ignore it and keep shipping chanbaek anyways? what do i do about my fics? it feels weird now to write about jongin in love with sehun when i know he's in love with another person in reality... it's true what they say, ignorance is bliss. like what do i do now? idk if i can even read sekai fics, let alone continue to write them...

 

i don't want to be one of those delusional shippers who are like, "omg the dating news is fake!! sm made kaistal date to cover up sekai/kaisoo/whatever", but then it's like. can i continue writing sekai when i know jongin loves someone else? idk what to doooo i'm so lost T~~~T

 

and i'm sad. for sehun. even tho i know it's stupid and he might even be dating another girl behind our backs, but lmao. i feel sad for sehun anyways. idk. this is stupid.

 

i just. sighs. yesterday was a ty day in general. first with the fake readers drama and then this. i think i'm just really unlucky in exo, because my first exo otp was krisyeol, and y'all know what happened to kris lol. i was so devastated and cried for monthsss when he left. then i found sekai afterward but now there's this... lmao fml.

 

i know i just posted a blog yesterday, but i just needed to get this out. talk to someone who might understand how i feel (most of my close friends don't ship sekai so i can't talk about this with them u__u), and just. maybe a hug? i think i need a hug T^T

 

i was gonna write and update destinare today but. hahahaa... T___T

 

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ExoEgy46_05 #1
Don't fell stupid, a lot of us had those thoughts.
Personally, I really think SeKai love each other in real life, so I really think that SM created that relationship to get some attentions. I know that probably this is an unpopular opinion, but I kinda feel like that.
I would love to hug you and share the hurt, I'm a pessimistic person too so I can understand you... When I first saw the news I was devastated!
firstladydragon #2
I am gladly giving you a hug, but let me say this - although I understand your feelings, dating news or any news from real life should not influence your awesome stories that build alternative universe and bring joy to people here who are reeading your stories. Although real life Kai gives you inspiration, its his character that you create here in your stories that really matters. Plus , never believe Korean media acting in harmony with entertainment companies lol, who knows the truth?
blackw #3
ik how it feels. it's been a week now and i still can't get over the fact that kai and krystal are legitimately dating. sekai has been, and still is, my ultimate otp and it's just devastating knowing that my ub is dating and on top of that, sekai "sinking". it hurts even more knowing the fact that we can't change anything. it's easy for others to say "we should be happy for jongin, and give him our blessings." but they dont understand how we sekai stands feel, and they certainly dont know how painful and heartbreaking it is. even up to this day, i find it so hard to continue reading sekai fics because everytime i do so, it just reminds me that kai's with someone else and i no longer see the point in believing that sekai might be true for all we know (yes ik im being delulu here, but i cant help but hope that mybe someday, sekai will ACTUALLY be legit.) i guess over time, we will eventually be able to accept the fact that kai is dating. but, for now at least, i dont think ill be able to get over it anytime soon.
SEHUNITED #4
basically we all sekai shippers felt the same? well.. i did felt the same. youve published this on 1st april and im logging in my aff account on 6th april...idk i felt so lost. their touches, gazes, and messages seem so real. they were made for each other. call me delu but idk...thats my point of view. it brings me the chills to read sekai fics. you know like 'ok im here reading sekai but the reality is never sekai its always kaistal all this while :('
glad to know that im not the only one that feels this way :'(
milkhxn #5
i feel you too, that's totally how i felt when the dating news got out ;; i ship sekai and jongin is my 2nd bias hence i feel v empty and lost and shocked when sm confirmed the news. then sehun came to my mind and I'm like what should i do with him? what should i do about him bc another brother literally just left his side for another girl so what's going to happen to him now? Is he sad or is he also dating too
i know this feels crazy and that we do not own them or anything but I'm just still having mixed feelings and feeling confused about what i should feel about this whole stuff. The news is a mess, the fandom is in a mess and so are my feelings.
Good to know that there's someone feeling the same way as i do :-(
EreNeko00 #6
*i ship him with sehun too (maigod,my grammar xD)
EreNeko00 #7
I am actually new to exo. And kai has always been my ultimate bias since then.I ship him with sekai too.And i know how you feel when the news about Kaistal came out.My heart literally broken to pieces when i saw it and shipping sekai was not the same since then.Of course,sekai is not real life but for us shippers it is REAL af!So, with this kaistal thing, i started to feel the sekai ship in me slowly going down.But don't worry author i will continue to read your stories!Take all the time you need.i do feel happy for jongin for having someone he loves but it truly hurts you know!(he is my bias and sekai is my ship for gods sake!!) T.T.anyway,i will give you a hug authornim.Take your time.Stay awesome! :)
soexoy #8
I understand where you're coming from since when I first got into exo, I discovered hunhan and immediately made them my otp. however, once luhan left the group I slowly lost the motivation to continue supporting my fantasy couple and I somehow stumbled upon sekai categorizing it as my guilty ship. I don't know when or how I came across this pairing, but I'm really glad I did because their interactions were so genuine. suddenly kaistal came to the picture and I believe I also have bad luck with exo. I tend to have an emotional attachment to my ships as well especially this one and at that moment, I internally felt my heart ripping slowly and painfully. Of course I was happy for him because it's krystal (one of my girl biases), but it didn't feel the same until another author quickly had me open my eyes to a realization. she had stated that the kai in fanfics is a totally different person from the one in reality. we technically live in an alternate universe where anything can happen the way we want them to and that's for sekai to keep striving forward. we have to keep both kais happy where we support the one in reality while pairing up the other with sehun in our world lol xD I'll always enjoy reading your stories anyways, so stay strong love!
Soccer_Sehun #9
Tbh I definitely agree with you on that one and I'm still pretty conflicted about this news. I honestly don't trust SM especially since there's another rumor floating around that they may/may not have confirmed it or done it to draw attention away from a possible KrisHan court date (sorry idk if this is true or not but I've seen it floating around the internet a couple of times). Regardless of if it's real or not I just want all of them to be happy including Krystal (cuz she and Amber are my f(x) biases :)) and I'll support your decision regarding your stories no matter what it is! ^_^
hataesun #10
lol I was shocked too when I heard the news
As fans you are emotionally attached to these idols even though you might not be aware of it(like me)
I wasn't sad about the news, I was shocked yes and upset at myself for even getting bothered about the news. I always thought my immediate reaction to an Exo member dating would be 'Yippie he's dating now' instead I found out it was 'he's dating :o?'
But one thing I've realized is that 1) I'm really happy the news came out 2) I've become too emotionally involved in Exo 3)it's time to take down my gang irking several notches down, sure I'll always be a fan of Exo but I'm going to reduce the time I spend on them
4) there's a big big world outside Exo and it's time for me to live my own life too, find my own happiness (instead of finding it through Exo) and build better relationships with other people around me instead of through lcd screens.
anneber #11
I really don't know WHAT to think!!! KryBer is special to me as is SeKai as is Kaisoo....AnneBer is the MOST special, but that's not the point. I don't know if SM is playing mind games, creating a diversion or telling the truth. Unless anyone here gets a paycheck from them, we are all guessing about the bottom line here...and even all the employees at SM are probably still speculating. The only ones who know the truth are Krystal, Kai and the company. I have already blogged my thoughts about the subject. ((HUG))....(((TITEHUGZ)))...I understand your pain. But, believe it or not, the one I feel the worst for is...AMBER. Check my blog and see why.
gabriyelle #12
i feel the same thing though i'm not an author but i felt it as a reader and SeKai fan. it is indeed weird to read fanfics knowing that the other party is involved in such relationship. we're coming from this side of the story then there is this reality. after knowing the news, it was really weird to read sekai fanfics. i still read sekai fanfics but there's this weird feeling, like emptiness inside. the effect was quite different now especially the kpopau stories. i felt the same thing with hunhan. i would say that time will indeed heal things. i'll keep waiting for your update no matter what happens. this issue won't make me unsubscribe your stories unless its completed. we're happy for jongin but we're devastated because of kai... good luck author.... hugs....
giana_claire #13
I understand. I felt the same. I'll never look at SeKai (or KaiSoo) the same way after news broke out. I'm still sad (for my OTP) but happy for Jongin. We have no choice but to move forward. It depends on the person though how long it'll take - eventually we'll get there.
It took awhile for me to get over the Baekyeon news but then after a few months, I found joy in reading ChanBaek fics again so things really do get better (even if it looks so hopeless now)..
Honestly, I try not to think about it too much.... it works LOL (also watching memes of my OTP somehow makes me feel better)
Here's a hug ^^
PalmerPie #14
gives u a hug
fluffysenpai #15
I agree and feel the same way with you girl. I too get really emotionally attached to my ships and in my mind they are like an official couple. We're also the same when it comes to sekai being our #1 kpop ship so when I heard the knews my heart pretty much dropped. I personally am not upset at the fact that Jongin found a girl but it hurts me to think that my ship now has no chance at all because all this time, to me it was all real. The loving gazes they would give each other and all ~ so I guess our views are similar, if not the same ...
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