Do you ever?

want to runaway from house, leaving all the people that you love behind and never face them again but at the same time you know that you can't because you love and care them and you need them in your life.

Do you ever?

give up being innocent and act mean toward your friends that doesn't know how to appreciate you, never understand you and they always the right one although they're not but at the same time you feel guilty, you feel that all of this is your fault and you should be the one that apologize first not them.

Do you ever?

hate your crush, don't want to have any moment with them, trying to avoid from stalking them, move on and stop crushing on them but at the same time you know that you loved them, you want them to be yours, you want them to notice your existence and mostly you want them to have the same feelings as yours

BUT you also know that this thing will never work. Everytime you try to do something unexpected it will never happen because we care so much about people, about their damn ing feelings, about world. 

BUT friend, do they ever, at least once. Care about you and your feelings? NO.

i'm done with all of this. 

p.s: I don't care about that damn grammar bcs I no that you guys understand with what I'm talking about.