To be honest nowadays I barely get to touch my stories anymore. Works are always coming in my mind, even if it's during the weekends. I wonder if anyone who is a fresh graduate and has been struggling with their work. I love it when it's in the Saturday.. but when it's Sunday my mood went down. I still didn't like working life. I quit learning language lesson, watching dramas and so much more because I barely got time for it. In fact, that's all what I did to release my tension. I was about to give up with it. I guess I get stressed so easily that I couldn't even get a good sleep everyday. Exhausted with work, and everything.

I played some rugby game last week, my friend who we knew each other since we were seven, has invited me. She invited me since she know how happy I was when it comes to games. And I used to play sports when I was young. Somehow my mom didn't like much for me to participate in it. Just some sort of different religion over here, but my family isn't racist actually. That was the only moment I could get a good sleep. Some say I was having anxiety, since I told them what I was facing during working days. My parents never know what I was facing.. I didn't have the guts to tell them how awful it felt when I work. My colleagues are now nicer to me, just I felt stupid since I can't absorb stuff so quickly compare to others. Pardon me for crapping things out for now. Just need a place where I can let things out from me.