I've been feeling kinda crappy :/
This is a personal rant, feel free to ignore :)
I've been feeling rather lost and stuck for a very long time, and my disorders have gotten worser by the second.
I feel like the only time I feel happy is when I write and get the lovely feedback my friends and subscriber give me, writing to me has become very important to me since it relieves my stress and honestly, I'm in my own world at the point where I engrossed myself in my stories.
But I've been yearning to do so much more, to move from this draining island and continue studying in makeup school in New York and my absolute most favorite desire is to transfer to Japan, even if it could get extremely hard I feel deeply an incredible love for that place and it brings me such a good feeling just imagining it!
But I'm being pulled back by my fears and it's like I'm glued to the ground and to the same people here ..
I yearn to meet people like me and explore so much more out there.
Yamada Ryosuke has been a great inspiration for me in every way possible, fashion and to never give up, to pursue my dream of being a makeup artist for and work backstage. And of course, my writing :D
I'm sorry for bothering you with this, but I'm truly lost and I do not share these thoughts with my personal friends since they would not understand.
I'm grateful for the friends here than keep me motivated, you guys really give me happiness ❤️
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