it's really personal and sappy oops just know that i'm leaving this account

there's something sentimental about asianfanfics for me. 

my profile says i joined here on the verge of 2015, but i had a previous account before. i've realized by looking through my subscriptions exactly how much i've changed. they bring up 2015 in snapshots of story titles. i remember using data just to read legend, an applyfic, spitting boba tea the first chapter of deer luhan with love, crying angrily at betray me not, and procrastinating school work for apps. windows down with indie music blasting at sunset, playing anaconda at full speed, sneaking home waffle french fries. panic attacks, anxiety, family problems.

asianfanfics for me was not only a social media, it was my lifeline. it was something i grew up with, the year of 2015 brought about the most change and aff was there right beside me.

i have to admit, i was so naive back then, but aff helped me to open my eyes.

i hope you don't find reading this wierd, i felt the need to reflect on my life.

but it feels wrong to hold on to something from the past into the future, much like how you wouldn't bring  a stone tool with you in an era of hologram tools.

which is why i'm leaving this account. i'm not leaving aff, just this account and I thought i should just put this here in case. i will have always loved rough-waters, but i need to move on.

march 11, 2016