It's always hard to find motivation when you have no big goal; something that helps all of the little goals come together.

Now? With the roleplay I admin in, I'm finding it hard to find some optimism even after the growth we've had recently. It's so difficult to make sure all members feel at home. To help them feel like there are friends all around them. But it doesn't help that there are circles created which are stayed within. I'm guilty of it myself, but I also have my own problems which add to that very issue for myself.

And with real life, well, I'm not doing all that much better. And yet, it is in roleplaying where I feel better. It's amazing to talk to people who are from all around the world. I've met some real sweet people through roleplay. I've made friends who honestly feel like family. Of course, there's always those people who are absolute butts. Although, those people were rare occurrences for my experience.

And....for whatever reason, in whatever case, if you happen to see this, Mia, please kkt. I will be there, I swear.