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uh, i'm not good with conversation starters so i'm just gonna say whatever ahaha

let me get this straight: this post ain't some kind of big announcement. just me blabbering about things.

First off, I've just recently finished reading a jungkook ff. and it was beyond amazing! but, i must say that it was so amazing that i'm kind of shivering coz it was hardcore action. like, it focused so much on the mafia world. i'm actually a scaredy cat, and i get scared of a petty horror movie trailer (which barely shows 1/10th of the horror in the film) and even crime news. ahaha, but whatever, i'll get over this. it's 12:49am (as in midnight) here, and i'm just looking through aff for a jungkookxoc story just to calm my heart down. but then, i've been recently into angst and the sadness just makes me stay awake, then memories of me and my ex boyfriend come back, and as much as i don't want to, i kind of want to cry. idk, maybe it's that time of THE MONTH ugh.

btw, i was hoping if you could recommend some jungkookxoc or vkook fics for me? let's keep it limited to fluff, romcom, and the like. no more action for now ahaha it's kind of like when i just finished reading the hunger games trilogy and i was both amazed and traumatized by what i've read ahaha. anyway, if you're wondering what kookie fics i've just recently read, it's the great reclamation by Koni_Fox(???) and the classified case(or was it accounts? lol i don't remember sorry ahaha) of ami hwang. i'd prefer the jk fics that have you cringing with too much sweetness (esp when jungkook kisses ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!)

hmmm, let's see... OH! I want to say sorry to my subscribers of She's My Girl and TMATT for not updating huhu. i haven't had any EXO feels lately. I'm still kind of brooding about me not being able to go to the EXOLUXION concert in my country a few weeks ago huhu. i had classes that day(night), but i somehow managed to focus ahaha.

but, the real reason behind that is because i've so obssessed with BTS lately huhuhuhu. i've come to realize a lot of things actually, that BTS is so much more free than EXO. i hate comparing people, but it's inevitable, i guess. Sometimes I wonder if EXO was Big Hit's then maybe I'd love them even more or maybe they'd be up to par with BTS right now. But then, there's something about BTS being younger than EXO that just refreshes my mind. And, OH MY GOD, i like how BTS has personal videos wherein EXO just goofs off in EXOSHOWTIME and in sone TV appearances. Don't get me wrong, i still LOVE EXO (I still freak out when I see Baek's hotness), but i just can't help but pity then for having to be censored in music (and by censored i meant about cursing and the like, not the xxx stuff lol). anyways, yeah, i am a bit emotional rn so don'_5 mind me ahaha. i actually owe(blame) my friend for me into the BTS fandom. she's an ARMY, and she just tells me story about BTS, but I couldn't relate. So, when the internet was not being a slowpoke, i decided to search on some videos and instantly fell in love with boy in luv hihi then she recommended the yoonmin ff "ghostly" to me and i didn't really feel too much because i couldn't picture yoongi and jimin lol. then i actually thought yoongi was a bubbly guy, but as i studied them even more (rookie king and ahl helped me A LOT) he was actually sharp tongued lol my first bias in BTS was TaeTae, then i stumbled upon "my kitten taehyung" and i liked him more resulting to me naking that tae one shot. and then, as i watched their vids, i actually noticed suga esp his lips! omg his lips and smirk are just so eyecatching. i had a slight crush on him until i decided to listen to jungkook singing acapella. oh wait, no, i noticed jk when i learned that they had a persobal twitter account and at that same day i followrd them i received a notification that jk and rm posted a cover of fools, i just fell in love with the naknae's voice hihi. then, i read some jk fic and i came across a vkook one, and i started to ship them ahhhhhh!!! but then, i just sticked with jkxoc fics coz i like them lol baepsae and paper hearts are my fave bts songs hihi just sharing.

so, hmmmm, i'm actually working on a bts fic. it was supposed to be about yoongi, but then i started to naturally add in other characters and in a nutshell this fic is just about bts and ocs. ahaha ofc it's romance. my middle name is romance, jk. i have a jungkook fic in mind, but i won't be writing about it until i've finished writing my drafts with my current story (it ain't short, so i guess it's gonna take a while). i won't be posting it until i've REALLY finished the drafts. my plans really don't happen, but this time i'll really keep to my word. i hope you'd read this new fic(s)

college has been so hectic. what with me having a scholarship to uphold. i've said in my a/n somewhere that my parents aren't really supporting with me being a kpoper in my college life and that i'd be the little rebel i am not actually doing ehat they want me to do. but in order to break free from my kpop secrecy, i'd have to do better in academics. my subjects been kind of chill, but i am still very cautious if ever things suddenly becomes very hard.

just a few days ago, i kind of had an encounter with my ex. it was actually unexpected. idek if it was really him. me and my friend were just walking by then when i looked ahead i kind of caught sight of his face? idk, i never took a second look, i cowardly hid behind my friend ahahahahaha stupidme. but the stupidest thing was i was actually nervous, i didn't even see or talk to him and i was like that. but maybe i was just shocked because it's been months since we've seen or talkrd to each other. our supposed anniversary happened just a month ago and at that particular day it almost slipped off my mind of the event that happened a year ago when i actually decided to stupidly check on the date lol i wasn't devastated or distracted. i was just like 'oh, so it was supposed to be today. him. i hope he lives miserably. lol, jk. i dont care anymore yay' but then that feeling was proven otherwise with my behavior a few days ago ahaha. im not making sense so skip this part

ahhhh it's 1:26 am, and i'm still awake. i have univ tomorrow lol, but my classes start in the afternoon. but i still wake up early to exercise because i've been fat my whole life ugh. dancing used to flatten my stomach but then my parents actually never allowed me to diet ever again. ugh, i badly need it now. my pants are killing me. it used to have enough space before huhuhu, but they say i'm not fat, ugh, i've told them about my tighter pants, but they insist that i should eat more. YOU'RE DAUGHTER'S FAT AGAIN, PLEASE LET HER DIET. DESTROY ALL CHOCOLATES AND BISCUITS PLEASE TT TT

yeah, i have nothing else to say for now. i'm having writer's block huhu. i want to stay awake but i want to sleep ugh. what is happening to me ugh. alright gnight thanks for listening ahaha

please, jkxoc fics 😭😭😭 fluff and romcom and the like please? thank you!!! vkook is also aight with meee

love lots mwahhhh

p.s. i hope you can comment. i miss my old reader's comment huhuhuhuhuhuhu

yeah, i wrote that yesterday. turns out i didn't save it stupid ahaha