Because posting on my tumblr would make things worse, so I'll vent here. Not that anyones reading LOL.

You have absolutely everything, and you're complaining like you're homeless and unloved. You got your grades, your piano skills, guitar skills, dance skills, singing skills, writing skills, and you even have the face and body. So what if you're short? I just feel like you have everything. When I finally got a 4.0, what do you do? You feel upset because now you're not the only one with good grade? Oh i'm sorry for starting to learn a piano piece, all you do is look up a complicated piece and play better. Oh you're starting to write again? Right after I start writing? I'm sorry you're not tall, but your body is perfect as it is. Some girl out there would kill to be a size double zero and have bigger s, and here you are trying to get skinnier. You are perfect. I can't even insult you because I know you're that good! It's just that I want one thing, one ing thing that our family will praise me for. Oh i'm sorry let Kelly keep he piano because she plays good? Oh, you're gonna buy a guitar for Kelly because she started playing? Oh you're gonna tell me that i'm stupid because my sister practically has classes all above me? Oh, you're not really criticizing my weight and comparing it to my sister right? God dammit, just this whole family. When mom acted like a ing teenager and had a baby with another man, when our older sister went out and also had a baby at 15, and when our younger brother came back to live with us, who took care of everyone? When you all wanted Dad to leave but I didn't? Who made me tell him to leave? A daddy's girl telling her father that we don't want him anymore? When I had to take care of my half-brother when mom would come home late? Or when no one was home to cook anything? Who did it? Who almost got into fights because you were bullied? Goddammit, where am I in all of this? Why am I the only thing doing everything? Being ed over so many times, by my friends and familly, are you all happy? And I don't get a thank you? Why do I have to be the bigger person? I have feelings too! I'm a kid taking care of kids. For now i'll smile, but grudges I will hold. Call me stupid, selfish, or whatever. I'm ing tired of this familly. I don't even know what to do anymore, I'm just tired.