let's talk about (my) fics this time.. and what to do about them...

■ sooo... how many of you have known me since awhile ago? like back in late 2014/early 2015? how many of you were around before i took some of my fics down?

more specifically, does any of you remember a certain sekai story i started back then? haha.

in my previous blog where i mentioned about the types of fics i like, there were a lot i didn't talk about bcuz the post was getting too long already lol. but one of my guilty pleasure is forbidden love. especially the  type of forbidden love.

now i know that's not everyone's cup of tea. i think i'm more ok with it bcuz i'm an only child and have no siblings, so that doesn't weird me out bcuz i don't know how that feels like lol. anyways, so like. i actually really like fics. and i started a sekai fic before called "Anything For You".

however, i took it down bcuz with the plot i had in mind, it was gonna be a pretty dark and messed up fic lol (something like love dealer..... >___>). and back then, it was when the haters/trolls were all up in arms against me and kept reporting my fics, so i thought, if i continue this fic they'll find some way to take it down. (they tried taking love dealer down. and even destinare LMAO like srsly. some people have too much time on their hands.)

anyways. just. idk. sometimes i think about that fic. bcuz i still love lmao. is there anyone still interested in reading it? hmn here's the summary and foreword for those of you who never saw it before or simply forgot what it was about lol.

summary:

There is a fine line between love and obsession―a line Jongin finds himself carefully treading on as he watches his little brother Sehun grow up and slowly slip away from him.

foreword:

"It’s just… when I watch shows or read books, brothers aren’t usually this… affectionate towards each other? Especially when they’re already teenagers? Or am I wrong?” Sehun asks, honest curiosity inside his eyes, and Jongin silently breathes a sigh of relief.

“No, it’s not that you’re wrong…” Jongin starts, debating on how to answer this. “It’s just. Maybe those people you watched and read about aren’t that close as siblings? But we’re close, aren’t we?”

The younger boy nods in agreement.

“A kiss is something you share when you love someone, and you love me, don’t you, Sehuna?”

“Of course I love you, Jongin.”

Jongin smiles at his words, even though he knows Sehun had meant a different type of love than he wishes for. Still, that’s enough for now. “Then, there’s nothing wrong with people who love each other to kiss, right?”

Sehun knits his eyebrows together, seemingly thinking, before he slowly shakes his head. “…No, I guess not…”

Jongin’s smile widens. “Then come here and give me a kiss, Sehuna.”

or i might make it as a oneshot and shorten the fic, idk. so i can skip over a lot of the "fillers" part that a normal chaptered fic would have. idk. would anyone be interested in reading it? do you prefer a chaptered fic or just a oneshot?

■ speaking of oneshots... i've mentioned this to several people before, but i actually have a few sekai oneshots i've written for fic exchanges on livejournal in the past. i've never posted it on aff (and tbh i don't think people who read those fics knew it was me lol bcuz no one knows what my livejournal username is -v-). would you guys be interested in reading those fics, too? they're pretty long oneshots. they're all over 10k words! :D/ how would i go about posting them, tho? should i post them separately? should i split it into parts bcuz they're quite long and equal like 5+ of my normal chapters? or post them all at once? i've never posted oneshots on aff before so i'm lost lol. advice?

umn i'll stop talking at this point lol. why are my blog posts so long ): i'm so wordy, sorry. oh!! almost forgot, TODAY IS MY 2ND YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF ME BEING ON AFF!!! it's been exactly 2 years since i've joined hehe. =^^=