WARNING: this blog is not k-pop related. It’s written for all my friends, subscribers and everyone I encountered here in AFF. It would be a very long one, you will definitely fall asleep reading this reflection of mine. So, please don’t hesitate to click the back button or you will regret it for not doing so. If you do want to continue, then you’re welcome but I’m not forcing.

Exactly one week ago on Tuesday, a pair of elderly couple gave me a box containing vegetables, fruits and freshly plucked flowers (all originated from their farm). I was speechless when I received it. I was really touched by their action and as a cry baby, tears fell down from my eyes. Why, you might ask. It is because they purposely traveled all the way from Cameron Highland to my office in KL, just to deliver them to me by hand! (Okay, Cameron Highland and KL are situated in two different states, and it will take a few hours drive to reach. What I want to highlight is that they must had to endure the discomfort for such a long journey as they traveled by bus.) I help everyone that comes to me without wishing or dreaming anything in return. And just this morning when I was waiting for the lift to my level, a woman greeted me and thanked me profusely for helping her securing her documents. The truth is until now, my mind is still trying to figure out who she is and what is her case all about.

Alright, before I was transferred(or should I say it was an offer) to be the PA of one of my directors, I was attached to the mass communication unit as a customer officer junior clerk. There, I came across many people and handled variety of cases coming from all over Malaysia. I had never dreamt that someone would still keep me in their mind after what I have done. And back to the elderly couple, their case had been settled since last April. So, basically I was shocked when they appeared in front of me, thanking me and brought along their unique present for me.

And now, I would like to express my gratitude to all my friends, subscribers and just anyone that I had dropped a line or two. I couldn’t reach out to you guys personally as all of you are from all over the world. So, this blog is dedicated to you guys! Seriously you guys had showered me with love, support and words of encouragement during my three months here as AFF member with username 9394DOKAI. The reason I write this is to inform you guys I’m going to ‘anti-social’ from February till April. (Yeah, some of you might think what is the big deal, when it is just merely three months. But, it is really a BIG deal for me as I’m addicted to this site and would get excited whenever I log-in seeing those red alerts!) I had no choice but to have some self-control for myself as my exam is around the corner and all I wish is to get a pass with one go. I will never ever want to repeat those papers again!

I first came across AFF when I watched EXO Next Door. I read a chapter (sorry, I couldn’t remember the author or the title) named I got D.O./Do Kyungsoo’s phone number (or something similar to this). It is about a girl feeling thrilled after getting his number by accident and called him every day even though he ignored her. And when I got hitched to Kaisoo, I found myself reading another fanfics posted in AFF again. And that time, I decided at once, I’m going to register as a member. I wanted to read everything about them and most of all, my ultimate crush, G-Dragon, very very badly and desperately. In the beginning, I was more to being a silent reader, leaving no comment even though the author asked for it. But later when my naughty mind started to have ideas here and thereafter reading this and that, I decided to write my own fanfics.

English is not my first language and my level of mastering is just enough for me to survive. And honestly, I don’t have much love/dating experiences. My first puppy love came to an end when his grandmother asked me out and told me off (no, I’m not lying. It really happened to me like those scenario you watch in a drama). My best friend grabbed my boyfriend from me in my second relationship. So, I really don’t have happy ending for all my relationship with guys. And now, I’m trying my best giving hints to a guy I had a crush with (alright, I know I’m stupid for my action when he is not giving me any response). All my inspirations came from everything surrounding me. It may be just a short article I read, or a short video I watched, or just simply over the counter conversation I had in my everyday life. In this way, I can really feel for my character. And having such a crazy mind like me, it’s hard to find someone, either friend or partner that can really understand me. My friend had once recommended me to consult a doctor’s advice as I had a mental breakdown when I started ‘Behind The Screen’. It is because the story is written mostly based on my real-life experience.

Okay, I’m done about my part. I will now shift my focus to all my readers, subscribers and upvoters. First of all, thank you very much for spending your time reading my fanfics. I know mine is just so-so compared to so many superb writers out there. I’m still on my way improving on everything. Subscribers, yes, I may only have a few of you but do you know you guys really make my day. The first fanfics I received subscriber was ‘Little Angel, Little Devil’ (feeling ashamed of myself now as it had been on hiatus, but I’ll surely finish it once I’m back). I used to say my max is five subscribers, but now I got twelve for ‘Behind The Screen’ (Okay, I know it’s just TOO few compared to those with over hundreds or thousands subscribers). But hey, it is still something I’m proud of and happy for as someone did really noticed it and read it. I got my first upvote for ‘That Star is My Love’. Yes, laugh at me as it’s just a vote. But an upvote cause 25kp, and I know the fanfics must be so good to receive such recognization. Once again, thank you for all your support even though it may just the few of you.

Lastly, all my friends here in AFF and those I stumbled upon for the past three months. And I would like to take this opportunity to thank some of you that had made an impact to my life. Yes, I tried to remember how I become friend with you guys. I’m sorry for not mentioning your name here as my brain cells are limited(I always had severe migraine that will land me in hospital for injection and drip). Still, the following are those really important to me.

Lully@WoodWitchofSurburia – thank you Lully for helping me in my English, enlightening me on differentiating the differences between adverbs, verbs, adjectives and many more. And also guiding and offering tips on how to be a better writer. Thank you Lully for everything you done for me when I can’t repay you anything as I’m so slow in everything I do.

KoreanLover300 – thank you so much for helping me to prepare such beautiful cover images for my stories ‘Let’s Not Fall In Luv, Can We?’ and ‘Behind The Screen’. I really love them very much and I’m so sorry I couldn’t describe to you how happy and thrilled seeing your wonderful great work. And now I know you wanted a break, and you’ve my back.

Kmarie081801 – for telling me to love myself as I’m diet again (though I’m perfectly normal) as I really don’t like my body. May god bless your soul, my friend and help you in whatever you do.

Marianations – thank you for writing a blog dedicating for me when I requested to learn a list of words in both Portugal and Spanish. Yes, I may not know on how to pronounce them but I really grateful that you share this with me as we are totally strangers.

SweetBabyKiss – here is another sweet girl that teaches me the lists of common words in French. I swear I’m going to master them one day when I have the time and done with my exam.

Endiiy – for sharing with me all your great work and even gave me the permission to use it in my fanfics. I promise I’ll give all the credits to you when I use them. It’s your copyright! I won’t steal it and claimed it as mine.

Kim_inspirit and ashleybek – both of you are my junior and we have become friends outside AFF through whatsapp. Thank you guys for accepting me as your unnie and friend.

Motivation – you made me a beautiful cover image for ‘Alice in Wonderland’. Thank you so much my friend.

Smileyeyes19 – for helping me in preparing a beautiful poster for my first malay fanfics ‘Cinta Xkira klass’. Thank you for helping me when I was searching high and low for a graphics designer for malay fanfics.

Myhani – for giving me upvotes on your birthday. Thank you so much for such a kind act.

FTisland_BigBang – for being the first to add me as your friend

Karlsaintclaire – you are the first male member I stumbled upon here and I really like the way you write fanfics.

Angel110 and marija120 – both of you have helped me in improving my English with your fanfics

I’m sorry for those I didn’t mention here.

I wish to say thank you to you who read it till the end. Thank you so much. And okay, now it is 4.50pm on 2^nd February in Malaysia. Yes, I’ll log-out now. Goodbye guys and thank you. See ya…