; one.

i lost myself in galaxies of you.
your eyes, the most beautiful constellations.
but i never expected to be lightyears apart like this.
hate me. love me. becoming so confused.
my life is hazy when you're far.
my life is dizzying when you're near.
i don't understand myself.
i feel like i'm committing suicide from thoughts of you.
but it's so silly- i can't stop myself.
i hate you. i love you.
you run and i chase you.
i chase and you keep running away.
my mind melts down.
in the end, you realize one thing.
we should have never promised this.
you've ruined me.
so i hate you. but i love you.
we were never meant to be.
and yet, my mind found some sort of solace in your universe.
a solace that wouldn't last.

 

# notes #

for a pineapple. for a flower.
this is annoying. i really do hate you. but i really do love you. both.