So, Hi there! You must be wondering why I started up a blog here but as you can see I'm kind of bored of my life and at the same time I'm really at the end of the cliff in losing my mind. I'm only writing because I have a lot of things to do and I just want to express my frustrations by writing it, I guess. kekeke! Well, I'm the kind of person who doesn't usually express everything I feel on my face because I just hide my feelings with a smile and I kept on thinking that it's a good thing. I'm a college student but I'm still 18 years old. Well, normally in my country when you're 16 you already graduated high school but now the law changed and the kids these days are pretty lucky to take their time. Let me explain it further before, in grade school you have to study for 6 years and then you go directly to high school for 4 years. Which literally means that we don't have middle school before but now our country started the k2-12 program, which is like middle school. So, yeah! I'm having a pretty hard time of finding what I truly want and now, I'm studying international studies because I thought it would be fun. Learning about cultures and languages and stuff but it turns out, most of my subjects are all about politics which is the complete opposite of what I  imagined it would be. Well, we do learn french in this course but damn! I hate politics! no matter how hard I try to read it. For me, its just a pile of paper that I have to remember and forget. I can still remember when I was in high school I really wanted to became a chef, or something that includes art but as for my dad he always said that those choices are not professions they're just hobbies. So now, my parents are paying for my college fees with a course that I'm not going to pursue once I graduate. Well, what can I do anyway? My parents have money while I dont so, maybe I'll just stick with this arrangement. I know its frustrating! And actually right now, I'm doing an analysis  paper about something that I'm not interested in so what the heck! I don't know anymore! I just really want to stop studying about the things that I'm not into. So sorry if I get a little sensitive about these things. I just really want to stop and do something that I want. Maybe, some of you guys are confuse and tired of something too so I' m just sharing my thoughts right now. Have a good life guys! 

-Love, sweetvanilla0401