Hi, it's me.

Why am I here? Because I wanted to share something. Tho Im not sure if you will listen, let me give it a shot.

I am not the type of girl who should rudely barging in on his white dress occasion~~ opppss, dont worry I am not planning of doing anything like that. Haha

So there, I know you already have an idea of what is going on. I met him last May 2015. He is nice, not really good looking for he ia charismatic, he is friendly and sweet and he is in a relationship.

I am hopeless romantic, so whenever he is showing me an act of sweetness, I fell for it. Every gestures, everytime he held my hand when we have to go somewhere, everytime he make sure my hair is not messy by tucking it at the back of my ears, when he notices my lipstick and tell me I look good with it, when he places his arms around my shoulder, asking me to go out for lunch, removing the catsup on my lips using his hands, placing an improvised ring on my ring finger while telling me that he will make everything better and when he go around telling everybody we went out on a date even we just ate together.

I know he told me a thousand times that Im like his sister that is why he cared for me so much but why cant I stop myself from falling for him? 

Is it just me or guys really has the tendency to play with girls' feelings? 

I hate my feelings for him. Am i the jerk or he is?