"No one can hear me"; that is the phrase with which my life moves. The people around me might view life as colourful and cheerful but it is not the case for me. I view life as shades of black. Everyday for me is a mundance routine. 

Can my life every be happy? I wonder. I don't want and need anyones presence around me because now I have been acustomed to the silence. I have started liking the stillness of silence. Emptiness and Silence are the two words which have become a crucial part of my life.

Friends are something everyone have but for me it is a foreign word. I try to avoid everyone and no one tries to connect to me either. School life is considered one of the happiest and fun life but for a person like me who everyone considers invisible, it is a forceful act enforced by my parents. I sometimes feel that the life of the trees are better than mine as they have friends together with them, standing straight and together through times of heavy rain or bright sun. I don't have anyone like that in my life. 

Parents are the ones we believe can share our feelings to. They are the ones to encourage us, to support us and to stand for us but for me, that is just any other fairytale story without any reality. My parents will concentrate on me only if they remember that I exisited, only when they stop quarelling the moment they come back home after their job and only when they realized I am not a mistake. My birth is a mistake for them and I just hope that the day when I can stand on my own comes soon. 

Bedroom is the first aid box to my wounds. My world is my bedroom and my teddy bear is my bestfriend. After I come back home, bedroom is the place I run to. Parents wil be quarelling and ignoring my presence. This is the bedroom where I grew up.

Love is just another unrealistic word for me as I never got anyones love. What is the meaning of love? I always question myself. No love from parents, friends or relatives. I will just be me.

Let's see if the bright sunlight will ever shine on my dark lonely bedroom or has the sun already given up?