Why Has It Been So Long?

     Hello everyone. I don't know how many people read this, and I don't particularly care. I suppose those that will take the time to read this will care about why I have been gone for so long (because I consider two months long). Anyway, I forced myself to take time away from my writing and take a personal hiatus becuase of my health. While at college I work a job that requires me work over 32 hours a week while being a full time student taking six classes. That's a lot of work and a lot of school pilled on top of it. I was averaging around 3 hours a night of sleep and I barely remembered, or had time to eat.

     On top of all of these unfortunate events, there was a school shooting a few months ago in the United States. If you live here you might have heard of it; it was at a community college in Oregon. One of the students that was shot and killed was my cousin and it took a hard toll on me. I am used to death, I have dealt with it a lot, but her going in that way really hit me hard. I was unable to bring myself to write anything after it happened. My creative juices just stopped, and I don't really blame them. It threw me back into a depression loop that I have been fighting since I was in Intermediate School. Depression is a scary thing to deal with sometimes, and writing stories was a big outlet for me. 

    Cuurently, I am getting better with the short holiday break I have between semesters. I am getting the help I need and I even signed up to take therapy session to help sort out my thoughts. I hope to be writing again for you all really soon. Not only does it help me, but I get enjoyment out of it and I hope to give you all the enjoyment of updates once again.

     If you took the time to read this, thank you so very much for understanding and remember that I am still here. I love you all and writting about my beloved OTP very much.

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Moon_ira
#1
I hope u'll be better.. Take us time, no need to rush.. Be strong and continue to fight.. Hwaiting!! U'll always have us on ur back! All prayers for u and ur loss..
mi_elf
#2
Oh i hope you are better now, and that therapy helped you.
I am really sorry about your cousin my heart and prayers are with you and your/hers family.
Kleedonghae
#3
I am so sorry for your loss. Please take all the time you need. Whenever you decide to come back we'll be here. Thank you so much for your stories!! <3
kiahae #4
Im sorry to hear that
Be strong and take all the time u need
I will pray for u to be strong and take care of yourself
NeMonkey #5
im sorry to hear that
be strong!!!

just take your time..
thank you for giving your time to write this blog and let us know your condition

so we wont demand for update etc ^^

hope this year will be wonderful for you & your family ❤
Renaka #6
I´m sorry for your loss. Take your time, as some one who is much older than you, I can tell you, time doesn´t heal all wounds but with the help of family and friends it gets better......you will always miss this person but you will although always remember their quirks and feel them being with you....in some way....if I make sense somhow? You are a realy good writer and very talented.....do what ever it takes to heal your world, we will wait for you! P.S. I´m sorry for my bad english! I wish you the peace you need to find =)
neorago
#7
hello my dear! i am terrible sorry to hear about the unfortunate events troubling you this year and I am even more sorry about your loss!

I've started to read your story "divorce" only a few hours ago! I was so caught up and now we have almost 4 am in germany! to stumble across this personal message at this time really shook me up and I sincerely hope that 2016 will be a better year for you! and maybe one day I will read something beautiful you have written again! and I will think of this very moment and feel proud and happy that you are better!

I really do wish for it!
much love!
Crabapple #8
I understand you 100% because I'm going through the same rn. I just want you to know that I'll always be a loyal fan!
anna9085 #9
I'm sorry for your loss...don't worry,I'll wait for your update even if it very late....take care....fighting..
jiruchan
#10
I am so sorry for your loss. Hang in there, take your time and I hope that you feel better soon. Be strong! Fighting~
Jewelmilas31 #11
Hang in there... hope you get true it and and doing well again...
NaNaJewel #12
First off I'm truly sorry for your loss, I live in Oregon and close by so I heard it all. It's good you realized that you need some help to get through it, because some people don't and they start to suffer in so many different ways. Take your time get all the help you need to bring you back to your best. The people who love your story will wait as long as its needed, we won't rush you. You come first, so once again sorry for your lost. And get better and feel better
imELF- #13
Im so sorry for your loss and for everyone that suffer those incidents. I'm not from the States but whenever those kind of things come out on the news it is really shocking and I still can't comprehend them. I hope you have a good start of the year surrounded by your family and beloved ones and remember your cousin will be watching over you, wanting you to move on with your life, happy that she is being remembered by you but also hoping you'll get better with time.

You're not alone, don't forget that!
Sasaki #14
That are sad news! I'm sorry for your loss! Take all the time you need to heal and live heathly ok?