the jekyll - modest, innovative, perceptive

the hyde - rebellious, brutal, jaded

 

background :  through complicated situations that he couldn't remember himself, seonha was only left at an abandoned shack with his supposed biological brother, in which none of them had a house to live in or eat, but a kind old woman who named both brothers; 'lee seonha', due to seonha's rebellious yet energetic attitude (shin seonhan), while his brother was, 'lee yohan', for calm, much quieter traits (go yohan).

but as they slowly grew up, both boys started to find a passion that they both took a likening to; music. all starts thanks to misook's neighbor, who was a proficient former guitarist from japan, ended up moving to korea for personal reasons. the neighbor had seen both kids looking with curiosity, even when seonha was barely five and couldn't speak proper sentences, let alone do something much more complicated. against all odds, both of them continued, albeit several on and offs on, that, fast-forward, yohan was performing as a lead guitarist, barely nineteen as seonha continued school with much difficulty, nearly no money left (busking could only do so little) and only living as two people, their mother finding peace at old age. financial difficulties caused yohan to drop out of college, and having part-time jobs just to support both of them and seonha's education (in which, to this day, seonha felt guilty of), asking him to continue studying so he would be satisfied later on. seonha never understood, and always envied other students whom were able to live comfortably with their parents, while he endured misery that he wished to end, for him and his brother, who had to come home at night just for seonha to find out that, the next morning, he's already gone somewhere. various jobs are taken just to keep them alive, but loneliness is never a good thing for seonha. daily lives just kept on replaying like insane. his only consolation was singing; not always to the heart's content, but sometimes, it is.

at the age of sixteen, just quietly walking in the middle of the night, he heard about yohan in a car accident. the car swerved off road and flipped over. horrified, he was told by doctors, that while yohan would be alright, it might take time before he would wake up from the coma. feeling his world come crashing down, seonha had sleepless nights and felt the faint light dying from him. he felt like drowning, with barely anyone to even give a look towards him, the emptiness is real. but not all people let their heads turned somewhere; one of them is ahn jaemin.

knowing seonha as one of the best guitarist in their school, only to face dropout, jaemin wasn't going to let his talent to waste, even after hearing the circumstances of seonha's misery. persuading seonha to join was nearly a waste, as seonha couldn't really bother with a teacher that only wanted his talents. but slowly, jaemin himself started to understand seonha's pain, along with the crushing heartbreak on what he had done to himself, an empty shell of what was him in the past. the naive is cynical of everything, the curious becoming less interested in anything, and the pain is blamed to himself. but jaemin wanted to let seonha to be back to his old self, to be the light at the yielding walls. and only when jaemin's stalker-ish attitude finally turned into more than slight annoyance, seonha was willing to sit down, letting himself be trained, although still as half-heartedly as it goes. nightmares about ending his own pain still concurred, and there wasn't anything. jaemin couldn't reach seonha. the light is almost gone, until he heard of seonha's pained words.

just at the day where seonha was feeling confident enough about dying, with jaemin never noticing anything, only to hear seonha gently singing, almost gone with the wind, but audible, one that still captivated him, although by the time he ended, the shards of pain hanging across jaemin, who was taken away, but came to a saddening realization, that, seonha didn't come back; just standing in a place. he came around, much to seonha's surprise, but when he lashes out, jaemin didn't goof out like usual; he quietly asked seonha to sit back at the bench afterwards, the school's park strangely quiet as tension occured. and only for jaemin to give a reassuring pat in the shoulder, eyes unwavering with sincerity, like the unsaid words of, 'it's going to be alright.' and with that, seonha teared up, the pain months ago starting to lift up, disappearing as the light finally tear down the wall. the hardest part is over. later on, at night, he let seonha to leave and stay inside his. the painful process, is just starting, but so does the future.

jaemin, in all of his capabilities, helped on polishing seonha's singing and even asked an acquaintace to help, one whom is coincidentally a vocal trainer from another entertainment company. impressed with his singing, he asked seonha to make the big shot somewhere; even the three. originally doubtful and fears being left alone again, he refused. but just as jaemin let him heal, he wanted seonha to follow what his heart said. and with that, after several failings (which he didn't take too well), jyp looked at his tape and approved. he became a trainee in jyp, circa. 2014

 

 

lame dad jokes; a bad pun and he'd probably crack a smile or stifle his laughter outside. there's no big deal about this, but he just had a strange sense of humor. one way to be a friend of his; do this. he'll be your friend in no time.

rock music; its been in his veins ever since he was a young kid. don't be too surprised about him bopping to rhcp, beatles, one ok rock, scandal, etc. sometimes it gets a little metal-y, sometimes it doesn't.

reading; something about the way the words worded and set up gives a certain beauty to him; but really, most of the times, its comic books.

red velvet; as in the group. he had guilty pleasure from the songs 'happiness', but it wasn't until 'dumb dumb dumb' that he was quite impressed of them.

guitar playing; much more than singing, since he's still shy about it.

(being told); unless you had all the best reasons to, never tell him off, especially if the tone is demanding. seonha works awful under pressure and definitely doesn't need a repeat in everything he does.

(dancing); he has never really experienced dancing in his life, so it's only a matter of time before people realized how stiff he is whenever he does so. some said his dancing is extremely awkward and he's embarassed about it. he gets better fast, though.

(diet); starving him for days would only make matters worse. hunger is a hard temptation to blow over. he also hates how it felt like being told off repeatedly not to, which drives him up the walls.

(cold weathers); not very immune to flu, seonha hates extremely cold winters and would rather stay back at home than go take casual walks around the neighborhood. he falls off to flu rather easily and his vocals get nasal.

playing guitar; it relieves his stress and being able to play since he was eight (12 years to now) is impressive towards other people. he wanted to be able to play drums.

reading; beyond YA novels, but mostly comics. hey, that also counts as reading! (marvel ones)

+ mostly insomniac (no pun intended) whenever finishing late night concert (double pun not intended).

+ drinks a glass of warm water before sleeping.