Hello, and welcome back to another whatever this is lol! So it's been about a month and  few things have happened.. Here it goes

After I asked him about the next exam, I felt I had built up a little more convidence in myself to say something else. The next week we were in class and I made little eye contact with him because I was starting to get sick and when I get sick.. EW. After class, I went to the student center and there was this Halloween thing going on so I was like yeah cool, i'll sit here. Met a few new people and talked to them for a bit until I saw Daniel and started thinking of dipping out. But why should I do that when we don't even talk. ANYWAY time goes by and he's leaving now, he has to pass by me to exit out of the east door and when he walked by, he was right there and he said "hey!" uuuuh I said hi back but it was soft. WHY??!!!!

Moving on. Days go by and he's not in class. So I thought maybe he dropped out and my chance flew south the geese for winter. The intructor had been telling us important things about tests and test dates and he wasn't there and neither were his 2 main buds either.. what to do, what to do.. I bravely decided to DM on IG and explain to him what has been said by the teacher. I fell asleep soon afterwards and when I woke up, (about 2 hours later maybe) I had forgotten that I even sent a message, so when I saw a message from him appea on my phone, I was like OMFG HOLY MOTHER OF PEARL! H e told me that he was still in the class and that he had been really sick. I asked him how was he progessing and so on and I mentioned that I wasnt in class also because I had a car accident, hit my head and was left with a concussion. (Im better now) So we talked about that forr a bit.. Days later, I asked him how was he feeling and he said he was feeling really great and thanks for asking.. I wasn't ready to end the conversation yet because this seemed like the only time I would talk to him so.. I asked him if I could have his exam notes. I was like that's a bit of a stretch but he said yes BUT he said all I had to was ask for them in class. O_O I thought he would just place them on my desk and say "Here ya go!" Boy was I scared, words never come out.

Wednesday was here and my teacher asked me to leave the class because I havent taken the test and they were going over it. Im walking down the hall and I look up from my phone to see him coming up the hallway. I quickly put my eyes back on the phone to act as if I didnt see him. He said "Hey what's up!" I replied with "Oh hey!.. Heeeeey" ( im so weird.) and he said "Heeeey" and walked back to me. I asked him about the notes and he asked was I about to take my test now, i said no and he said when I come back to class, he'll give them to me. After waiting with my friends, I walked back to class and there he was lol looking at me with a slight grin. He grins at everyone and everything lol I looked down and went to my seat. My friend was teasing me the whole time about him. After class was over, I told her to wait because I had to get something from Daniel, she was making these faces and i was like please stop. Im already kinda embarrassed. I walked over there to him and his friends and he was getting them out of his book bag and I was just staring at his hands. I honestly dont remembe thinking. I ws just staring. When he gave me the papers, I said thank you and he said I should thank Allison too. So i said thank you to her and gave her a hug. He was looking like you gave her a hug? I left out of class after feeling bave AF to look for my friend who ditched me. I ended up passing her somehow, so I decided to turn back to look for her and there she was, coming up the hall fussing at me LOL and there he was, behind her. she had no idea(She also thinks Daniel is beautiful. She says he's a 10. wow) I somewhat yelled "I was looking for you" He looked up from his phone at me and raised his eyebrows. I kinda rushed towards her so he knew who I was talking to and he walked by us but stopped where we were. and I said thank you again because I felt awkward. He smiled and said no problem. He was just standing there. I was thinking "should I hug him too?" but my body would not lean in that direction. I told my friend I'd wait for her in the student center while she talked to her advisor. I get there and a group of my friends are still there, so I go to talk to them. Soon I see Daniel and his friends coming in there and my cousin and Daniel started having a eye show down. what the! When he and his friends walked in the book store, I  said omg he's just so gorgeous and my cousin replied "Who, Daniel?" I looked at him and was like "You know him?" bruh. When he walked out of the book store, he came and stood by my table and just stood there before slowly walking off.

Saturday.. I built up the courage and DM him about how i wanted to be friends and so on. (I would feel like I used him also if i didnt say anything else to him after getting notes) I was expectiong to have to wait for hours for  reply but he replied instantly and was like yeah sure! you didnt have to ask. you seem friendly enough, lets be buds. sit with us next week in class. BRUH I died. DIED LIKE HELL! I told him those seats were taken but i'd figure out something. US! -__- eeh I can talk to them alone, but all together, I feel so out of place. Thisis great! I'm his bud! I've accomplished what i set out to do but now, I feel its about to be harder. Me with them is like putting Bobby in Shinee.. DA ? That's how opposite we are. I shouldn't let my father's mind shaping get to me but that's how it is. I really really want to be near him, but I dont want to feel so uncomfortable. That is more of a self thing and insecurities. I don't have physical insecurities surprisingly, its more of an internal thing that I just cant seem to fix. This week is Thanksgiving break so maybe NEXT WEEK, I'll have something good to tell you all! SEE YA!