I've been wondering, since it has been bothering me for like 7 years, whenever we are eating, when the edge of spoon or fork is pointing at me, I'm getting scared, something like that. I can't really explain how it feels but I feel like it's going to stab me in the eyes and I can't breathe properly. I have this problem specially when we were eating on our last new year celebration and I don't know how to say to my other family members (sice I'm not that close with them) that I am uncomfortable with edged things pointed at me. That time, I almost fainted but I tried to ignore it, so all I can do was act naturally and bite my lipsand still, I can't breathe properly.

I don't actually know what's wrong with me, but it happens all the time. I searched about i and I learned that it was called "aichmophobia" - fear of sharp things.  When I was like 7, my mom and I went for a check-up because she noticed that I've been blinking my eyes too rapidly, and then I don't know what he did to me, but it took some time (like 8 weeks or something), then I realized that my fear with pointed things at that time was gone. But that actually lasted for like 3 months and then it was back again. I can't even it properly. I have to put away those utensils that are pointing at me whenever I eat with my parents and they think I'm so weird.

It's not just on eating. I am a writer in our school and whenever I am writing, I have problems with my pen because it seems to be too close with me. It's not even that pointed. The ballpen's cap is not, right? But sometimes, I have these issues. Sometimes, when I got TEARS and I can't write properly because of that, I can't rotate my wrist, so I just typed my articles on my aptop. But the problem is, I think I'm going crazy, because I seem to notice the edges on the table that I cans saw from afar while typing.

I'm biting mylips too much lately because i'm tryingto overcome this fear,I rarely told anone in school because I think it's too carzy to listen to. Wenever I saw table edges, the tip of a pen, or anything sharp pointing at me, I am trying not toput those things away. I tried to stare at it and wait until I'm not that scared anymore.But what? I'm so frustrated because at the end, I would look away from that thing and breathe because whenever I stare at those things, I don't even notice that I'm not brathing normally anymore.

I really hope to overcome this fear soon. So soon because I need to be normal. It's been bothering me for almost seven years and ugh, it started when I was 7 years old and stil,now, I can't even eat properly. I can't even help my mom on cutting vegetables or any foods without even getting scared. I don't know what t do huhuhu.