Have you ever felt played? Then when you don't remember that you've been played, someone will tell you that you've been played.

I feel so played right now that I just don't care or don't want to care. But I also want to let them experience it. BUT I don't want to because in the back of my mind I believe they're still good-hearted. 

But this so fugging. Fugging fugger. I wish I won't be played again and again every time. UGH. 

It's just so bad because I'm craving for the touch, for the closeness and the bond, for the eye contacts,etc. 

Grr.

Bye. Again.