cybernetic, writer's block, health & suicide

I'm not sure exactly who will be reading this and how many will actually care but I need to get this out of my system. Also, precautionary: my language is about as refined and literary as a pile of dog .

First of all, some of you may have noticed that I've suddenly sent you friend requests, this may be because you subscribed to one of my stories. Thank you. Much appreciated. If so, then thank you for opening this up as this is relevant to the story. Sort of.

I'm having another slump and drawback because heck, my health just took another toppling fall. Hail meds and doctor appointments and ty psychiatrists. /cue half-hearted cheering/ Anyway, because of that, I really have not been feeling well enough to do anything and I've had to take days off my job. My bosses aren't that kind-hearted or flexible so fookin' cupcakes am I screwed.

I think one of the people very dear to me also just committed suicide too and that just really hit me hard. Second death in less than three months. This huge part of me is simply refusing to believe it because oh my god does it feel like one's heart is being torn out of their chest.

I'm feel very weak. I don't have time and I'm already staying up till the early hours. Why is it that in the end, truly, it all comes down to time? That's what we seem to need to the most. It is the intangible things that are most important to us.

I wasn't able to update as soon as I wanted (both for Cybernetic and Eeeny Meeny Miny Moe), I'm so sorry. I don't think I'll be able to update too soon either. But, here are some sneak peeks & clues.

Cybernetic:

  • Minseok's stalker has a lisp. (the cat is OUT of the mofo bag!)
  • "We've always been watching you."
  • Junmyeon once ran away from the Exordia Brothel.
  • Baekhyun is dead.
  • "It's what you do best, isn't it? Take up your ."
  • There are females in the story's world.
  • Insight on the four ranks:
    1. ​​Aurias - Rulers, decision makers
    2. Argentus - Higher ranking warriors, had a say on decisions made and plans
    3. Iris - Mainly consists of the scientists
    4. Hercule - Foot soldiers

Eeny Meeny Miny Moe:

  • Jongin kills the scientist.
  • Junmyeon is the last experiment.
  • Minseok hates apples.
  • "Jongin's been dead for years, Minseok."

​Well, there we go. Hope those clues/random facts/sneak peeks were helpful. I'm sorry if you actually read this ramble. Cheers, have a beautiful day.

-AKi

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nacia90-16 #1
I've just read your blog and I'm sorry for your lost and I hope that your health is getting better~
JulieCavi
#2
I am so sorry for your lost and i really hope you get better soon~!
bananaicecream #3
Im sorry to hear what happen to your life.. I hope your health gets better..
I cant imagine if one of my dear friend did that.. I'll be heartbroken.. I hope all things will turn out better for you.
Please dont think too much about the fic.. It should be the least you worry about.. We will definitely wait for your comeback. But health and real life come first, I guess
deerbun90
#4
Be strong :)