I'm not asking for comments. I just need to vent. 

You'd think that as a 23 year old, I'd have my together. But I don't. 

My parents are going through a divorce, or just filed it, and I'm not even in Mexico to witness it. I'm in California.

My father is a jealous, anger-management monster that has managed to drain my mother from enjoying life. 

He checks her phone, her social media, anything to catch "evidence" of her supposed infidelity. Why? Is he the one cheating?

I'd hate to think that. I'd never forgive him such betrayal. I never thought this would happen to me. Not me. 

I on the other hand, am going through financial crisis trying to pay college debt and loans. ALL to have a better life than my parents.

I work with my Uncle and his Wife, and I don't make mega-bucks. I have two freaking jobs and a full time schedule, and I still don't make enough. 

I used to think that I had valid reasons to take my life away when I was younger, but nothings seems so valid, as it does now.