Lately many things had happened to me the things that really made me broken down and felt so sad was my test. Exactly to be Biochem and Biocell I lost 9 my carry marks at both subjects. I never told my mom about how sad and how depressed I am living in here. I’m not like other students who already got basic from their foundation and Matrik. Heck, I’m from Dip who learnt Medical Laboratory courses and then went to Biochemistry degree program. Can u understand how I felt when I don’t have any basic at all.

Yeah, when I told my other friends they will say ‘Relaks arrhh, UPM ni lain sikit dri UiTM,”

I just want to say ‘lain banyak bukan sikit.’

If I told my mom, I’m sure I will be scolded, she must mad at me why I choose this program. It’s not what I want, I want to take Biomedic which was the one that I learnt during Dip. Then…it turned out I got Biochem. I cannot change anything. T_T

I don’t know what should I do right now? Crying alone here won’t help me anything. Sometimes there’s crossed my mind “ Should I leave UPM? Further my study at other Uni? But where? I don’t want to waste my times just for degree. Maybe I should continue, but should I force myself?” so many things I thought lately that make me feel depression.  

No one will understand and never understand.