okay so hi again!!! *waves a lot* ( i need to calm down...i should also stop talking to myself...but im fun to talk to...)

fair warning, im gonna rant, because oh.my.god.

 theres like a lot of reasons why. we'll start with the biggest one. so ive never seen the fancam of "my lady" from any of the exolution concerts until today. for those who dont know what im talking about watch this. It is NOT meant for the weak hearted and those have a thing for chanyeol because holy bddhbdbddkffjasdvjfaWVFhevDFHJV!!!!! what the hell chanyeol?!?!!!?!?!?! i mean i mean dude!! it is so not cool to make that face while doing that and why the were you looking exactly into this camera!?!?!?!?!?!?!!? its just not cool okay!!!! suho too!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!! *deeeep breath* i mean none of the others seem to be doing this, as much i as apprecitae the feeling and emotion you have put into that hip frot the love of god and all the holy just..just..okay!!!! i keep pausing after the to hyperventilate to my bestfriend and then continue watching it....i may or may not have watched this vid atleast thrice by now, not anymore beacues its just......ugh!!!! im not sure how many else of you will be able to realte to this but  aaaaaaaaaaaaah. okay im done. (not really, i dont think i'll ever be done)

now the second thing. the main reason i stick to loving exo and liking, ah screw it, loving other groups too is because well, i already know them and i know how to split my love towards them equally so that one wont feel jealous of the other ( yes im weird deal with it) and so i did my best to avoid the rookies like the plague. my brain is like " oh god not another one! i cant store all of their names, and songs, and lyrics. you need to stop. like right now." but my heart is like "im big enough for all of them". if this keeps up i'll be having just waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too many favourite groups. i was listening to music and i saw day6's congratualtions. i was like "no harm in listening to it once right?' i swear my brain ought to be laughing at me and tell me " i told you soooo~~" beacuse my heart ran away with them and then came back to run away with up10tion. why heart why!?!?!!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?! but they're so cute and so good!!! (T_T) 

ill end with this one rant about college. just why?! whyyyyyyyyyy?!!?!?!? i dont wanna gooooooo! yes im aware im acting like a five year old . its just soooo much stuff to study and sooo many papers to write and everything is just happening in such a short span! i hope the next sem will be a bit better.

i've been wanting to update both my fics because its be so damn long and i wanted to start a few new ones as well, but i just dont have the time for anything and i havent been in a mood to write anything of late. i really hope once my schedule clears up i'll be able to do it all.

i think thats it. i ranted all my other rants to my bestfriend, thank god he's there or i'll else i would have gone crazy or lost myself in everything. Today, we both had a talk of what would happen if, when we get married, our partners wont like it if we talk to each other and will have to stay away from each other. it's a very depressing topic because we're both really attached to each other and we both understand each other better. we agreed to stay away for the greater good and face it when the time comes. why is all of this so scary. growing up is inevitable but...i'd like to escape to neverland even if its just for a short while.

oh!! and did you guys hear d.o's cover for boyfriend. O_O

you should go listen to it.

okay NOW im done. its past 1 am and i need to wake up at 4 am to start doing the various crap for college. -____-'

good night or good morning. have a nice day! ^^