I just want to write this out, I am currently managing a team of 12 people and I think I am being exhausted but there is a flicker in me saying that I still love what I do, which I think I do.. ahahah . Anyway, there is a situation that happened to one of my people and I was understanding as I could well as a supervisor you cannot be cruel to your employees that is what I learned. Especially in this type of environment, well, there is a monthly survey in our company and they answered there were two people stated that I needed improvement on leadership. I am open to feedback on that of course and that is something I am willing to improve but there are these instances that you need to hold on your anger because you don’t want to be unprofessional so I keep calm as possible.

Back to the survey, I am not concern on what they think I am more concern on what the upper management would think because they have trusted me with such responsibility and I felt that I am not doing as I am expected to do, I am just hoping that they will understand that I am not perfect and I am still young in being one. I always say that starting in something new would always be a rough beginning. I really need a blank page to put my random thoughts hahah.

There are times that I feel that all of them are talking behind me about something and that hurts, well that is  a perk of becoming a boss I guess and you cannot really please everyone. My action plan is to study all things I need to do in order for me to be good boss, yet within the rules. I will write all the things that I need to improve on in terms of managing people well before big bosses become cool and loved they might have gone through a number of hardship that I am experiencing now and this is indeed a hell of a ride. I will give it more effort and try harder and work harder to be on the position where I want to be. It is frustrating if your people don’t believe in you but it is more frustrating if you let them stop you…

I know I have the power to change and I will definitely do it.. If I can’t please them or if they still have the same thought now. .. Well they don’t have a choice I will be their boss for more time. Hahaha Evil laugh..

If you guys have something to say, or a help maybe on helping me improve. Articles or shoes anything that is gladly appreciated.

Fighting for me..

Oh yes, this is the reason why I can’t update as much as I used to before.. I need a living but no worries I will always update if I have time.. That is my channel to release my stress and all.. see I just released mine now.. There might be a number of blogs coming out from me..  because of my state but yeah. J