I keep saying to myself that he's just a person where i had my infatuation on. I keep calming myself not to worry much. I have been distracted. I tried to be strong and keep believing i am good enough for him.

well, i didn't.

have you ever been treated as a second choice? it hurt like hell.

You chased me first.

You flirt with me first.

You made me as your human diary.

You made me happy.

You made me believing in myself for once in my life.

You teach me to be loving.

You actually cared and waited for me when i go to sleep without texting you.

You are so kind to me.

what is that?

I thought you're really into me.

I thought i already find the man that love me for who i am.

I thought i can open up to you. (and yes, i did open up to you)

for all you have been doing to me, I fall for you. 

When your ex-girlfriend discovered about me, she embarrased me in public. she accused me as a stealer. what is that? and you didn't do anything. i still keep my sense because i keep believing you're into me... I didn't fight back. 

and your ex attacked me through private chat again. i didn't do anything to defend myself. She surely made my day worst that day and I still put my trust in you. But, you crushed me. To my horror, you are actually only made me as a place to fill in over your lose ex-girlfriend. I feel destroyed. where is your respect to me? You choose her over me. After for a while we had been together, you still wanna go back with her? after what she had done to me, you still wanna choose her?

You hurted me... I hate you so much.

for everything that had already happened, You are the one that upset me much.

You shouldn't open my heart if you're not going to choose me at the first place. You crushed me very badly.

eventually to be treat as a second choice is the worst nightmare.