I can't believe I've repeated the same mistake for like the umpteenth time now. 

I'm so dense and superficial. SO MY LIFE IN A NUTSHELL : STUPID

Why do I tend to take everything for granted even though I'm not all the way wrong. Sometimes my position is kind of ambiguous. I'm always in the middle of a problem. But sometimes I just cant bear to not take responsibility for what I have done. Even if it's not a hundred percent my fault, but sometimes people feigned their innocence when they, in reality, are in the same boat as me. But I'm not the kind of person who's really upfront about her feelings, but I know for sure I won't pass the baton to someone else and make them a scapegoat. 

I have to remind myself from now on, that most of people in this world is too pressed. Especially around me. I've come to realize that some friends are too unexpected sometimes. They did something wrong, but then when their wrongdoing gets caught, they would shift the blame. And to whom? To the weakest one, of course.

I think being curious is a human nature. We can't help to be curious. And gossiping is something inevitable when it comes to human's curiousity. Some people are too pressed. They take humors seriously. I SERIOUSLY CANT. Well, hate to break this to anyone, but I think, we all have laughed at the expense of someone else's suffering. That's the harsh reality of this world.  Sometimes we can misinterpret a humor. Misconstruing them and bring them to a whole new level.

I've known this particular fellow for years. And I can see that she's looking down on me inwardly. She blames me for everything, even the wrongdoings she committed herself. I was made the scapegoat by this fellow. And even though it's hard, I actually gave in and let her blame me. I stood up for myself, but she's so good with words and convincing people. I was not very great with words and my words are all dubious and not really trustworthy. Even though I tried to justify, it was all naught. I don't know why I'm so prone to blameshifting. 

Why should I be responsible for the wrongdoings of the others? And why is it so hard to convince people? And once your image is besmirched, nobody will ever see you the way you were before that certain thing happen. 

Why are people sooo pressed? Are they too stiff or stressed out by school or something? 

Can't we have fun?

Having fun have limits. But this time, we have to realize this is not really serious. Why not serious? It's not something intended to deter D's supporters. It's actually something we can all have a good laugh about. It's not something to be stressed about. But pressed people are taking this to a whole new level like this photo editing thingy is a felony. If he's determined in being a head of the student organization, then he should prepare for the forthcoming setbacks, and he should expect people to doodle on his campaign picture. This is obviously not a smear campaign. He's well-respected enough I think so no matter how many people doodle on his picture, he would stay the same if he don't talk about the picture further. But why are the other people sooo pressed? This is not something we would be depressed about 10 years later. It shall be something nostalgic and fun though. Like Rhoma Irama is also a respected public figure so why should he be offended about it? 

I can't believe in people.

But oh well.

Sometimes things can go wrong, and some other times, things can go the way I want them to. I have to clam up sometimes and not admitting todoing trivial problems.Sometimes people are way too finicky, and they love nitpicking.Ha.