I honestly can relate to them both because I'm alone without no one but my imagination to think of company from what my mind has thought of. Like V of course, I am found gulity and is to be hidden away so that nobody can ever see me. No, I never killed anyone but I've put my dearest friend in pain and slowly making him suffer. Instead of being confident and telling him straight up I was sorry for leaving, I've watched him from afar. I couldn't believe that he and some other of my buddies left me and so I made some "friends" with my mind. I laugh, chat, and smile on my very own time like through the hallways, classrooms, and/or the bathroom, which I should just date myself since I make myself happy when no one was there to pick me up when I've fallen. Of course, I am to be hated and hide away. Guilt and pain is what I truly feel and wish to end my life too quickly that my friends thought I was selfish to do it although they all wished me to be gone. I wish to be a Butterfly and fly free from the stress and the hatred putting upon me and somewhat drown myself to know how it felt like to die in miserys of my friends who left me. I want to be gone, really I mean it.

However you might no longer believe (in) me as I say this about Jin and I, but we both are insane and have no idea what comes next, either someone's life would end or not, we're dumb. Like when V was climbing up the tower to smile at him one last time before jumping, I wouldn't have stopped him either. I mean think in Jin's condition. He and V has lost their friends who meant a lot to them, V who is like me that time when he jumped because he was gulity and finally realized everything was a fake, Jin didn't expect such a thing. Like, I'd think that V would just look at the scenery and come back down and sit next to me or something. You know what I mean? In the video, Jin doesn't look that depressed but if you really were close to him and knew him very well, you'd know he's upset and that the past is what he cannot let go so easily, like me.

Everyone here and there who don't know me hate me because I am too complicating. Never once had a person had really knew me and how it felt like to be humilated when my friends had betrayed me. Knowing that I liked him, he created rumors and set off with another girl and called me ugly. That word did not hurt me, that girl who walked to him and glared at me with such disgust and when I examined at her body and her face. She was perfect all over. Everything was just...great. Now that put me into misery. Wanting to be noticed was such a waste of time, I thought he liked me. He fooled me real good and left me. His buddies which were my friends too, followed his steps. I fakingly smile and only have myself to be satisfied with. While everyone's gone, I'm here comforting myself. I was so trapped into my imagination the thing that got me snapping to reality was when they kept bullying me so very much, the people I had in mind slowly disappeared and I was yet again...

Alone.

I want to end my life, I have more things that messed me up other than just that. I have too many to count and I'm attempting to make a story of it. Don't feel bad, I was a nobody anyway. Only I have experienced sadness, no room for happines anywhere to be found. Many is now defining me and I don't know myself anymore if everyone's going to label me.

To friends who were like family to me, thank you but also sorry that I'm soon to go.