an excerpt of my a/n at the end of Avant-garde:

A/N: holy .

 

ok first, i'm really really sorry to have pulled this on you guys. every single one of you who've subscribed is amazing and deserve better than a subpar author. it's just... i lost the exo bug. though i am still invested in kaisoo, i don't feel the same pull to write about them and don't feel comfortable doing so any longer, because having been out of touch with the exo fandom for this long means that i don't think i can do justice to their characterisation. it's like when you write something halfway, and then stop, and try to go back to it - it just doesn't flow the same way, you know?

 

anyway, from the overview you can tell this was going to be one LONG one shot and what's written barely even skims the plot, if at all. it was going to be pretty cool with kyungsoo becoming someone more open with himself and with others and with jongin being a really key factor in that character development. i'm sad that i can't bring myself to finish it but i feel like if i'd tried to push out the rest of the story, it wouldn't do justice to their characters and their stories; and for that, i apologise.

 

i hope the measly few paragraphs that were written and the overview were enough because trust me, i know how it feels to be left hanging. i hope the outline has at least given a sense of closure and let you know that YES they do get a happy ending!!!! happy endings are important and good!!!! (not that you would know from paramnesia and 1.5 hearts...) so yes, every one does get a happy ending and yes they went through but they come out all the more better for it

 

wrt where i am now: i am still writing on ao3 under the penname sassyneki. it is unlikely i'll be writing any more exo fics (paramnesia, when nights are cold and days unyielding and 1.5 hearts are all posted there tho) but i am still writing for bts and will continue to do so, at least in the near future. so if you're keen, do look for me on ao3. i am also on tumblr at verydaebak. if you guys have any questions (wrt this fic, my exo fics, bts fics, or ANYTHING ELSE) do drop me an ask! if you want to be friends, drop me an ask too!!! (i like friends)

 

again, i'd really like to apologise if i left any of you hanging for what has literally been months. though i am no longer as into the exo fandom as i once was, the boys are still my children and i am still unreasonably invested in kaisoo for reasons unknown, and i do continue to support exo. i simply won't be writing fics for the fandom any more, since inspiration seems to have waned. i will leave my fics up on aff and ao3, and please, if you have any questions or feedback or comments, do drop a message. you're all amazing.

the a/n says pretty much all i wanted to.

another note: i am leaving aff, too, because i feel like the quality of the fics here has dipped. i don't mean to say that every story is of low quality; it's just that i'm finding it immensely hard to sieve through stack upon stack of fics, on the off-chance on finding one that makes my heart hurt because it's so good. a general lack of care? effort? put into writing - and really, that's not much of an issue, to be honest, because it's their story and i am in no position to tell them how to write. however, i do feel that it has cultivated a culture where i don't feel comfortable posting, because the target demographic is different from my target audience and the kind of stories on here can prove to be very problematic, stories that i don't feel comfortable associating my own with. i feel like i can grow better as an author over on ao3, and so i have moved over there permanently. 

i'm immensely thankful for all the support every single one of you have given me, and it has been my pleasure to contribute to the exo fandom for this short while. if you'd like to chat, find me on tumblr (verydaebak) or if you'd like to read my non-exo fics, find me on ao3 (sassyneki). 

you're all amazing.

till next time!

- tyler