Guys I am dying over reuslts day.

Its on Thursday and I am soooo dreading it. I even feel like I'm making myself ill over it.

I am scared beyond words. I just feel like this year my results are not gonna be good. I can't even explain how I feel. I am in a class where evryone is expected to get A/A*s and I know that I wont be able to. More than letting anyone else down I dont want to let myself dwn. I have too many high expectations of myself and I feel like a loser if I dont live up to them.

I feel sick everytime I think about the 20th August. I keep getting panic attacks and tbh I dont know how I'm gonna survive that day. Straight after I have college enrollments (*crieeeees*)  where I have to further discuss my results, great -.-

 I worked so hard for my results so I dont understand why I feel this way.Its not like I sat there doing nothing when I was supposed to be revising so why is it that everyone else is ok and I'm breaking apart over a stupid piece of paper. 

Anyway this is my frst blog post since I couldnt keep it in and I had to tell someone beyond my group of genius friends. 

For anyone else having results day, I hope you cry tears of joy and not of despair :) 

Pray for me pleeeease!!! I need all the help I can get

Have a nice day! (I'll be moping here unti Thursday occurs)