I know I should be updating my fics but I can't help to write this...

I arrived at the place exactly 5 hours before the concert and BANG... there are tons of fans waiting outside. I was so shocked when I noticed that there are so many international fans who came. I've waited outside for like 4 hours before they opened the gates for us to enter. When I arrived at the arena, my chest automatically thump and wild palpitations took over my whole being that all I can utter was, ". I'm so close" because yeah, I didn't even imagine that my seat was so close to the stage when I wasn't even in the VIP area. We waited for 1 hour inside the arena and their music videos were playing non-stop and it didn't helped me at all because it added me more nervousness and my heartbeat was going crazy as hell. TT___TT

So yeah, the concert started and all I can say is BIG BANG JUST BANGED THE WHOLE ARENA!! From TOP's weirdness (as always), Seungri and Daesung's dorkiness, Taeyang's hot dance moves, to GD's swagness. I mean, the whole arena was totally blown away.

WHAT I LOVE:

* What I loved is that we kept singing to almost all of their songs. Yes, we did every fanchants but I think it's really cool when you see and hear your fellow VIPs singing the whole song while waving their lightsticks together. 

* When Seungri said that he can do "Pabebe" (Filipino slang which is used oto describe when a person's talking like a baby. Lol) and did his funny version of Gwiyeomi that's not even cute to be honest, but I can't help to laugh at his silliness. Lol

* When Daesung said "Gusto ko kayong makita" (I want to see you guys) then moved his hair that blocks his eyes and I swear he's sooooo damn good-looking.

* When TOP ate a Big Bang chocolate (Filipino chocolate brand) in the middle of Bang Bang Bang performance and I laughed damn hard at it. LMAO

* When Taeyang said "I love you from the bottom of my heart". Heooool TT___TT

* When GD performed his freestyle rap in MAMA 2014 with too much iness and swagness.

WHAT I LOVE MORE:

* When Seungri said "Cute nyo po" (You're so cute) with his cute accent. Awwwww <3

* When Seungri said "GD poging pogi" (GD so handsome) in the middle of his "Let's Talk about Love" performance and followed by a Nyongtory moment <3

* When Daesung did a y dance to show his love for Filipino VIPs. Damn that was hot. <3

* When Taeyang said "Like rice cakes, we're perfect for each other" which made my heart flutter and made me want to be a rice cake T____T

* When TOP said "Gusto nyo ba?" (You like?) 

WHAT I LOVE THE MOST:

* When GD performed Crooked. God knows how much I wanted to see him performing my favorite song of him TT___TT

* When Taeyang performed Eyes, Nose, Lips and the whole fandom were singing from the start until the end. That was honestly the best performance of the night (i think) <3

* When Daesung and Seungri became a bias wrecker because of their funny fanservice. Lol =)))))

* When Daesung did his drums solo and I swear he became my bias for like 2 minutes. Heoooool 

* When we did the blue ocean at their "Blue" performance

* When we opened our phones flashlights while singing to "If You"

* When Dara was there to support her sunbaes

* When GD sang a bit of their new song "ZZUTTER". That made us feel somehow special :">

* WHEN GD's PARENTS WERE JUST A FEW METERS AWAY FROM ME!!! LIKE GOSH I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THEY'LL BE COMING THERE AND SO CLOSE TO MY SEAT FOR GAHO'S SAKE TT___TT MY IN-LAWSSSSSS!!! TT___TT

* WHEN GD WAVED AND SMILED AT MY DIRECTION AND I AUTOMATICALLY RAISED MY HUGE "ALWAYS G-DRAGON" BANNER. I SWEAR I DON'T CARE IF I'M BLOCKING SOMEONE'S VIEW THAT TIME I WAS JUST LIKE ' HE'S LOOKING AT ME SO BACK OFF'.

WHAT I WELL... NOT LOVE:

* When TOP said "Hello Singapore" instead of Philippines. Huhuhuhu 

* When GD is a bit cold that night. I honestly didn't expect that he would be like that. I thought I would be seeing Kwon Jiyong but what I saw was all G-DRAGON..But yeah, I guess he's just tired of their busy schedules so I can't blame him. 

* When TOP deleted his IG post which says "Goodnight Philippines" and later uploaded it again with a caption "Goodnight Jakarta". :(((

* When all we got from GD's IG post was a simple "Thank you" when he said "I love you all" to all countries they went. Well, don't take it in a wrong way, I have nothing against other countries but I was just saddened at the fact that it seemed like he didn't enjoy their concert in our country. Yes, I kept thinking for positive things to think that it's not true, but I can't help to feel disappointed because that's not what I expected it to be. Maybe i've just set my expectations high, well because it's the very first concert I've attended. 

WHAT I HATE THE MOST:

I hate the fact that despite of my disappointments, I will continue to support them.

I hate the fact that it's been a few days since I saw them, I already miss them and I want them to come back here as soon as possible.

I hate the fact that I'm sulking like a kid right now.

I hate the fact that I think i know every part of their being for me to say these things when they don't even know I exist. 

What I hate the most is that despite of all that, I ALWAYS END UP LOVING THEM...

I hate how much I love them..

I hate and love the fact that no matter what happens, I will always be a VIP... until whenever.

Even though BIG BANG's MADE in Manila was not perfect, I still enjoyed it so much. Its imperfections were the one that #MADE it perfect.

Now, all I can say is SALAMAT BIG BANG! I'm very happy to be a part of your World Tour. Till we meet again! ^^ I promise to save money for a VIP seat. Lol =))))))

From a VIP.