You know those times when you wake up early morning and you lay on your bed and you cant help but ponder on the things that recently happened to you? Yeah. Im having one of those moments right now.

These last few months have been nothing but a roller coaster ride for me. There are ups but there were also downs. It started when I found out that my boyfriend was cheating on me late January. I was, I think I still am and forever will be, the kind of girl who falls inlove with her all. I reasoned with myself that maybe I was not enough. I learned a lot of things out of that relationship though so I cant say it was a completely bad one. I think we just came to the point where we love each other, but not enough to be honest and loyal. I cant say that he's the one completely at fault for the falling off of our relationship since there will always be two sides to a story. But just yesterday morning I received a call from him. I was surprised of course since the last time weve seen each other is when we decided to call it off. Coincidentally ( I dont know for certain if it is) he called on the date of our supposedly monthsary. When I told my bestfriend about it, the one who witnessed the blooming and the fall out of our love, she told me that he still constantly checks up on me. She told me that he always asks her how Ive been or if i'm seeing some one again. I know some of you might say that we will get back together again but its just that, ever since our break up I actually started to get closer to my family again. I started spending time with them again and my relationship with my Mom got incredibly better. Somehow too, Ive moved on from him. I cant say Ive completely removed all feeling for him but I'm getting there.And I started to see the world in a bigger picture. I felt as if a heavy weight was lifted off my back. I felt like I was starting to become me again. I realized too that right now, my priorities isnt really with falling inlove and being in a relationship. Right now, its more along the lines of, I have to focus on my studies so my family's effort and money wont be wasted and all about securing myself a good future.Love will always be there waiting around the corner. Ill let it in when the time is right and when I'm ready. I wont push it anymore. Ive learned the hard way that I shouldnt look for love cause it will find me. And that more than anything, Love is a thing that shouldnt be played with when youre not prepared, Cause it may cause you bliss for a moment but it can also teach you a lesson you arent meant to learn the hard way. 

Did I make sense to you? (•ิ_•ิ)（⌒▽⌒ゞ(●⌒∇⌒●)