First of all I'm just gonna getting of my chest what is bothering me now, so if you have nothing to do, nothing to read and is willing to kill some time, feel free to read this u_u~

Okay, let's start with the "little miracle". And for this, there's something you must know: I hate kids.

Maybe "hate" is not the right word. I'd say I don't patience with kids. So no, don't ask me to take care of some baby, some kid, just no. Kids are a no no to me. BUUUUTTTTT a miracle happened yesterday................. e_e

I went to my uncle's house. And for you to understand the things, he married again, and I REALLY love my new aunt. And by the way, if you're wondering, YES, she has kids, and YES the kids are younger than me. Both are girls and one of them is 12 and the other is 17. The thing IS that... Well, the natural thing would be for me to be friends with the older girl, but not. I realized that those 2 girl have a relationship the same way a cat has with a mouse. They simply hate each other. I mean, REALLY. Anything the younger one say, the older yells at her. They curse a lot, they fight a lot. And the worst of all is that..Well.. If that woman is my new aunt, previously should there be an old uncle, which should be the girl's father, right?

It turned out that this supposed "father" just don't give a for those 2 girls, and it touched me, specially for the 12 years-old girl. And when I realized, I started playing with her instead to talk with the 17 years-old girl. It surprised me because that little girl kept talking to me like no tomorrow. I realized she lacks attention, she lacks love, and it's not because my aunt don't give her attention or my uncle don't care about her, but because she misses her father.She said she cries because of him because he cares more about his 'girlfriends' than to his daughters. And what shocked me more was that the little girl SAID these words to me.

In the end, she begged for me to sleep there, to keep her company and I didn't have the heart do deny,so yeah, I slept there. We watched tv till late and she slept in my lap. When I realized I was playing with her hair and brushing them off her face >_____>

I think it's becausemy parents are also divorced, so I guess identified myself with her. The difference is that even though my dad doesn't give a about me and my brother, I also don't give a about him. But she... She misses him a lot, just like my brother misses our dad, so........

So yes, it's a HUGE miracle @_@

For the second part, the "kick in my face" was today~

I just got out from the movies. I went to watch two movies today with my mom and my bro: "Pixels" and "Ant-man"

Okay, till there, it was great. I wasn't expecting much from theses two movies but they surprised me. I REALLY liked them.

Well, the funny part is that when I went to watch Pixels, I remembered when I first went to the movies after me and my ex broke up. I was scared to go there and find him with his new girlfriend there. And guess what? yes. ZERO luck. He was there with her, but okay. I swallowed everything.

And guess what, again? This thought just crossed my mind when I went to watch the first one, but NO, he wasn't there and I thought I was really silly on thinking about it. But when I was going to watch the second one.......... Oh yeah e_e He was there with her.

I spent the WHOLE movie with the sleeve of my hoodie pratically covering my face because those two ing love birds seated in front of me and I definitely didn't want to see their heads moving and they each other YECK. It . I almost couldn't pay attention to the movie because I had to adjust me sleeve and my hand in front of my face every ing single time e_e And it bothered me to no end because it's been almost 2 years since we broke up and I still think about it.

I mean, we stayed together for 3 ing years and he NEVER EVER asked me properly to be his ing girlfriend. He didn't even introduced me to his parents ans his girlfriend. I was always his friend to everyone. His friends, his parents, his co-workers. Everyone.

I gave him my all. And in return, he gave me nothing. Just a wound in my heart that I fought really hard to heal it.

It bothers me because I keep thinking what I did wrong for him to never acknowledge me after 3 years, and just after 4 months he and that girl are dating and telling to everybody.

I know she is way more beautiful than me. she is blond, red lips, skinny, thin waist, taller.... I thought my love, my care, my body, my attention, my affection would be enough. He never held my hand in public, never kissed me in public, but he even updated that ing status on facebook to "dating".

And yeaaaasss there's more. She's older than me and she found my twitter and started fighting with me TRHOUGHT ING TWEETS!!!!

I MEAN, OH C'MON!! This is so childish!!! ò-ó

I guess it's sad because I'm not believing on marriage anymore, nor in love. I dunno~

Maybe that's why I like to read fanfics and books. To runaway from the reality,because, maaan... Life, sometimes, really *sigh*