so I haven't said this, so nobody-excepting Actual_Dragon because we know reach other irl-would know this, but I'm actually half Native American and half Caucasian. I have one full sister, a half brother and sister who are both full Caucasian, and another half sister who's also half Native American and half Caucasian. I'm going to say White now because I'm too lazy to type out both Native American AND Caucasian.

So anyway, why would I tell you all this? Well on this mission trip, we are in Yakima, Washington and the Yakima Indian Reservation. I'm actually Yakima, and on the first day we were here We met this guy who turned out to be my cousin. But anyway, I'm actually registered as a Warm Springs Native American which is in central Oregon, so I'm more Warm Springs then Yakima. 

Today we aren't doing any work, but we're having a culture day. So we're going to have fry bread and salmon and jerky and go to a pow wow and it's GOINGG to be amazing because I love fry bread so freaking much and salmon omfg. But anyway we are also learning about Native American boarding schools and we had to watch cartoons this video on them, but I couldn't watch it. I had to leave. I caused em to have an identity crisis, because I am half Native and half White but I was raised White and while I knew a little about my Native culture, I didn't know a ton until a few years ago. When asked I always say I am Native. But I'm so scared now to reject it accept either White culture or Naive culture. I'm scared of who I am because of this video, and I can't talk I anybody because almost everybody I know is full White or Full Native or Full Korean, and nobody has this problem of culture clashes. On the one hand I want to ask my mom-who's White- if I can go live with my dad-who's Native- so I can relearn all my culture in depth and I can do everything a full Native American can do at my age. On the other hand I want to stay with all my friends. I've lost hundreds of friends either through moving or because they were actually frienemies and I don't want to go through it again. I finally have a really super amazing group of friends through school and church(surprisingly to me) and I don't want to loose all the connections I've made and I'm so lost. I'm sorry I just really needed to get this out. If you read all of this, thank you so much, I love you. Can we be internet friends? I don't have any 。・゜・(ノД`)・゜・。